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Alex Mihailoff


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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Aries

City: Pittsfield
State: Massachusetts
Country: US
Signup Date: 3/29/2005

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pure fires (1)
September 25, 2008 - Thursday 
  1. Song of the day: There is a Kingdom by Tree63.  Interesting for two reasons.  1:  I only know the first lyric to the chorus and that's what's been running through my head all day.  For the curious, it's "There is a kingdom/that cannot be shaken".  2:  As the dig goes deeper into the blackness, this is a song of hope.  A reminder that no matter how dark things may be, God and His kingdom are perfect and cannot be overturned, even disturbed.

 

  1. I wonder what would happen if I actually tried...

 

  1. I thought today that I was ok being me.  The problem with this thought is that it's a complete lie.  I'm not ok being me because if I was, I wouldn't hold back as much as I do.  I wouldn't struggle with how to act as much as I do.  I know that me is way better than the "me" most people see.  I'm just afraid to let him totally out.

 

  1. I must be making progress.  I've reached the point where I can start feel pain from my family. The father level is going to have a terrible amount of inventory that hasn't been touched in many many years.

 

  1. I don't know what I would do if I actually had the opportunity to complete cut loose.  To become the me that is true as opposed to the other options.

 

  1. Definitely nearing breakdown levels now.  I felt like crying for half the day or more.  No breakthrough in sight.

 

  1. With everything that's going on, I'm stupid tired.  I just need to sleep for a long long time...

 

  1. I need a light for my darkness.  There's a lot of it and the pit keeps getting deeper.

 

  1. Save me.  Please.
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pure fires
Nic Valesey

 
"I thought today that I was ok being me. The problem with this thought is that it's a complete lie. I'm not ok being me because if I was, I wouldn't hold back as much as I do. I wouldn't struggle with how to act as much as I do. I know that me is way better than the 'me' most people see. I'm just afraid to let him totally out."

Ever watch Neon Genesis Evangelion? Aside from the fact there are some pagan elements and esoteric symbolisms, it's a great Anime series for the depressed!!! The creator of the series wanted to represent a time in his life he was depressed. I could send you links for it if you want (it's on Google. Not too hard to find! The last episodes are on Youtube. A little harder to find since they were so confusing to a lot of people).

Anyway, do you know that no matter who you are we love you? And you are not alone.

You

are not

alone.

Love you, man. :)

p.s. I have only links for the Japanese with Eng subs. So, whichever you want.
 
Posted by pure fires on September 25, 2008 - Thursday - 4:16 AM
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