Hey man, look you are one of the few people in this world left that say what they mean and mean what they feel. I will let you in on the secret. Life is to short, you have to have fun be you and never look back. People don't have to be the way you want them too and chances are they really don't care what you want. Just accept the fact that nothing is as it seems and mostly to someone like you. I spent many years full of hate for humans and I finally realized that I hated myself for not being able to handle them. I don't expect anything from any one but myself not even my hubby. I can only control what I do, think, and feel and will never really know what others are, do, or want with themselves. Keep making yourself strong and learning about who you are, never settle on anothers words, but find peace in yourself. The only way to be happy is to find love for yourself. Focus on you not the others then that way if you feel let down then you will have good reason for it. I hope this helps, I have left many friends blowing in the wind and the more I learn about me helps me better understand them. You cant fix everyone but you can take a deep breath and think... why are they that way? I have learned alot about past friendships and realize that they cant always see what they do. FAKE is an understatement. More like totally lost. You have a sixth sence, and its called emotions. You feel things so much deeper than others and it can be hard to understand why others don't see what you see. The truth is that they never will and you will be lucky if you find someone like me who gets that to be a constant in your life. I wish you the best if you ever need to just vent then hit me up!!! Your friend Amanda