There is a time at night when you can feel that sting in your heart and you know that you are really alone in this desolate universe. I mean in the greater scheme of things we are really just as small and insignificant as an atom is to our real world surroundings.
We can try to justify our importance to the world at large but truthfully only a very small handful of people will actually be remembered.
So we seek others out to form our groups of self importance and take shelter in knowing that there are others who truly care for us and are there for us.
But what happens when we come upon that time when we are faced with the realization that the ones we care the most for are out of reach like some distant shining star that radiates a beauty that is so profound and alluring to the eye but can never be reached from our Earthly prison.
It is that moment of the night where the fabric of the heart weakens and the cracks in the arteries form like shattered glass upon a chandelier. When ones breath feels as if it can not be kept in long enough and the dizziness in the head throws you into a sense of wayward vertigo. It is at this moment when the defenses fall and one is open to the cruel void of everything that is real and undeniable. This is the moment when the masks of happiness lose their identifiable shimmer and the letters that form the words that form the expressions lose their clear meaning.
It is this moment where we are consumed by the universe and left with that cold dead feeling that we came into this world with nothing and we will leave it all the same.
At this point we can either reach to define our happiness and what that may be for this small portion of time left to us in these very few breaths or we can give in to the defeat of knowing that we can be lost to the feeling of silent surrender and a life devoid of the happiness we truly seek.
The moment comes quickly and is easily forgotten or forced into the background of the sub conscience.
This is the only moment where true clarity can be reached or gained.
So when you feel that moment, ask yourself, is this the life you want or need or desire to live within.
If the answer is no, then can you really call it life?