Why I never got into heroin

I tried it in art school.

Brown shit they packaged in balloons

I snorted it

I shot it

I puked

My eyes slipped shut like greased wheels

I felt okay

I felt hhmmm

I felt worry free.

I felt cool

I felt skinny

I exercised like a maniac the next day.

Get it out

It hurt

It made it hurt worse every time

I hurt already

I didn’t need to escape into a coma only to awake into a deeper nightmare

I didn’t like it

It killed my friends

It wasn’t worth dying like that

If I’m gonna die I’m gonna die because I choose to

Fuck heroin

Fuck all drugs

Alcohol

Drug?

Yes

Mine

I can keep myself from dying with alcohol

I can stop myself

I know what’s happening

You may not

But I do

Living is Important

I made that decision

I realized dying is when it’s all over

No matter how painful

How boring

How infuriating

Life is it

Heroin is a loser’s game

I figured that out really early

No brainer

Living?