right now i know im in no position to be complaining, but i will.

All my life i've been worring about wat other people said about me and how they viewed me. Well...fuck em'.

it seems i have no regards for human life wat-so-ever.

if something bad or terrible happens i seem to brush it off, dont ever come to me with any problems cause i'd probably shrug and say that i dont know wat to do for u ; i might say sorry...but thats my outer, weaker mind speaking to you.

my inner mind...well, thats something i cant get to without being taken away.

But i can tell u this,

It seems that i'm in an hourglass filling up vigorusly, and the things i see on the outside is my life something i cant seem to get in touch with. And as the sand slowly suffocates my soul cries for help yet my hermit mind doesn't send the message to my brain.

So i apologise (<===spelled wrong) to anyone that i may come hostel to, its just if u were in the position im in u'd be the same: on the outside looking in on ur own life, probably no one WILL read this...

I guess thats how worthless i 'm projected to be.

I don't understand: everyday i go to school, everyone seems so calm and so happy (happier than this lonely shell), and yet i cant seem to grasp the fact of this enigma called joy.

But one thing is for sure, I WILL NEVER FALL VICTIM TO THE SYSTEM! i mean just because i'm quiet and shy doesn't mean that i am WIERD. it means that there's things in my mind that are stirring up. All my life i seemed to be rejected... i dunno... but please just remember:

NO

MATTER  WAT THEY SAY you're u and u can change...

please dont be like me...

i'm a lost soul