it was the prologue of the Tour Da Chicago this morning, and i didnt do as well as i wanted. I was shooting for a good hour 15 minutes for a 23+ mile course. I was to the first checkpoint (11.68 miles---mistake! too long! it should have been about 10.4) at a really quick pace for a too long route and hit the second checkpoint (another mistake, i took a bad route....almost 7 miles that should have been 6.3) at about an 1:05. i lost a bit of time riding into the wind slightly. but the real damage happened when i was on the way back to the finish. i rolled in at an 1:27 for the last 5ish mile stretch. 22 minutes for an easy easy stretch that should have taken 16. *my 5ish commute to one of my gyms in the morning takes me 16-17 minutes every time. notice above that the less than 7ish miles took only about 20 minutes. thats about right for me. So that kinda bummed me out. but ohblahdee. i took 5th or 6th i think in the girls, 62nd out of 80 riders. only one girl broke the top 40.

the good news though is that my legs dont hurt, and i learned alot about my riding. i'm still excited for the next one.

more good news is that i stepped on the scale this morning and i'm .5lbs away from the weight i graduated college with. working at PJs, i put on ALOT of weight...like well over 13lbs of it. now, that included an accident this summer and a good amount of time being sedentary, but i like that i'm leaving PJs back to a self that i can recognize a little bit more. it makes me feel like leaving that job is the right choice. affirmation is a nice thing.
even knowing that i wont be working there soon is really calming.

i want to get back on my bike!!!! but i know i gotta let me legs chill out. i'm teaching 3 classes tomorrow, but i wanna go out and ride the streets. i fucking love riding my bikes. I wanna set all these goals for myself, and start racing, but then i think "shouldnt i be putting my time and money into my theatrical career??" and the answer is NO because i feel that if i 100% give over to theatre, i'm gunna lose my grasp and understanding of the audience i'm talking to. So i'm gunna keep riding my bike. and i'm gunna get faster. and its gunna be a fucking riot.
i need some fude too, i'm hungry as a motherfucker. i eat allll the tiiiime.

i feel good. and my rabbit, charlie, is the shiznit.