I am so tired of stress that comes in horrific cycles.  The quarter system sucks...it's always go go go. --like summer school, (which I'll be taking two quarters of O-Chem in, thank you very much).  I am sick of an inconsistent schedule every 10 months that calls for either too much actual class time (e.g. 3 or 4hr labs), or too much freedom that I'm not used to, and I waste it on sleep, tv, whatever.
    Take tonight, for instance:  I have a genetics midterm tomorrow that I didn't study for, because I was either catching up in my other classes, hanging out with jena, doing pre-med club duties, working, etc.  (excuses are endless).  I am tired of a repeating cycle that I am doomed to do poorly in at least one class (usually the toughest, yet most important one), and which I fruitlessly spend night after night of little or no sleep, studying the night before, for. 
    What is wrong with me?  I am so inconsistent it's killing me.  I like genetics, don't get me wrong, I just have no energy left to start studying at 9pm.......I just can't think when else I could have done it?  Maybe I have the habit of when my class schedule gets easier, I fill it up with things before lacking committment.  I spent day-after-day with Jena in the first two weeks of the quarter, started my Fundraising Chair duties after that, waited for the right time to quit work (yesterday), and finally saw a movie, played a computer game. 
    I am so tired, I'm just rambling and slowly losing my point  & direction in all of this.  I even drove to my campus library 45 minutes away, & skipped my Journey obligations to study. But it's not working.  I am so tired....And that's only the beginning of my woes.  THERE.  Now aren't you glad you got to listen (read) to me whine?