Humming Bird Of Death "10
cancer
detiorating flesh clings to my skull
mind is forced to watch as the body rots
spreading cancer
the only way is to rip it out
malignant and corrosive
remove the cancer
pessimistic
never moving forward
only moving backwards
on a downward spiral
until the day i die
feeling pessimistic
crippling depression
depression ...
gaining doses of pleasure
from butchering the ones you once loved
retardation
mask insecurities
with pretend stupidity
a self imposed mental handicap
fake ignorance
for social benefit
you're not fucking funny
but you're a joke to me
abandonment
i remember the shit you preached
when you first met me
i guess all the things you believed in
never meant a thing
you're a fucking hypocrite
how could i be so naive
to think you wouldn't abandon me
pox
incurable disease proves mans inferiority to nature
flesh boils, your skin rots off
fever sets and your mind decays
bodies wither to nothing
your sanity corrodes away
epidemic spreads wiping out the lower class
rich pay for the cure, while the poor suffer with death
everything dies within time, watch it rot away
everything dies within time, watch it rot away
endless repitition
wake up, work, sleep
a never ending cycle
like your farther
and your father's father
living just to die
youth spent carelessly
then enfeebled and useless
counting down hours
of monotonous waste
bullshit
never ending cycle of shit
endless repitition
like slavery
human machinery
end it now!
crawl
I won't beg for your crumbs
I'm subservient to no man
I'd rather walk on broken glass
than crawl on velvet carpet
too proud to crawl
I don't fucking care
I'd rather walk on glass
purgatorial existence
perpetual limbo
frozen purgatory
stricken with sorrow
malcontent for an eternity
with every agonizing breath i blame you
you did this to me
haunted by fear
of an unavoidable death
drowned in a river of shit, screaming in pain
eternal existence of constant melancholy
I didn't ask to be born
knee deep in the dead
put on this earth to kill
blood's drained, only bones left
victims mercilessly slaughtered
I will haunt you
until my death
I'm inhuman, i am a monster
I'll bury you
I'll get revenge
I'll bury you
while you're alive
retribution - for what you've done to me
I'll get even with you NOW
suffering you
deeper and deeper you cut
inside me your hands dig
i cry "please stop"
deeper inside you go
you make me suffer
experiencing pain
i wish it would end
deeper inside needles are driven
unbearable pain, i keep it inside
but I'm suffering you
narcosis
you've lost control of things
lost a grip on what's reality
too far gone, never coming back
narcosis!
what a pitiful - existence
merely - existing
half-dead hardly - living
dying just to get a life
inadequacy
feeling inferior
filled with self hate
not good enough for you
or even myself i'm done with life
I've given up on everything
sick of trying
sick of failing
sick of living
sick of dying
sick of me
sick of you
sick of friends
sick of family
I'm never fucking good enough
====================================================================
Spoonful of Vicodin split tape
Gas Chamber
My chest caves from the inside
I can feel the maggots crawl through the sockets of my eyes
Poison fills my lungs
Suffocation - unconscious
Every breath brings me closer to death
slowly my life is taken away
My eyes roll to the back of my head
Desperately seeking a way out
Forced to dig my own grave
Praying for a quick death
Die Alone
I don't fear dying
I don't need anything
Or anyone As a crutch
To make me feel worse about myself
I'd rather die alone
I don't need anyone anymore
Tyrant (Titus Andronicus)
Slice off my tongue
Chop off my hands
Forced to swallow my own blood
Existing merely to seek revenge
With every taste coming closer to death
Staring at a decomposing corpse
That no longer resembles myself
Guilt Trip
racked with guilt
filled with pain
I've grown tired
Of pitying you
Guilt trip!
The contemplation of suicide
Your fucking guilt rips up my insides
Fuck feeling sorry
I'm tired of feeling this way
it's just a fucking guilt trip
Corpse Maker
Blood stained walls
Adorn the layer in which he resides
Victims tortured and slaughtered
Helplessly brutalized
Ender of lives – corpse maker
Bringer of death – corpse maker
Eater of souls – corpse maker
Harvester of the damned – corpse maker
You'll meet your end
Social Claustrophobia
Alone, in my room
I sit and wait
For the time in which I die
Miserable and pissed
Time by myself, is how I deal with it
Forced to spend time with
Worthless idiots, who I despise
Just get the fuck away from me
Corpses in the crawl space
Smell the rotting corpses
The putrid stench of decay
A pleasant surprise
Left from the previous owner
Corpses in the crawl space
Swallow your tongue
You've been talking for so long
But all that comes out is shit
All you ever do is bitch and moan
Now I'm getting sick of it
Shut the fuck up
No one's listening
I'll rip your jaw out through your skull
If you don't just shut the fuck up now
Swallow your tongue!
The Butcher
Trapped in my closet
With amputated limbs
Your sole reason for existence
Is to be tortured by me
As I slip my hands into your insides
Removing organs as you slowly die
This grizzly fetish is the only thing that pleases me
Obsessed with human butchery
No escape
No way out
My obsession
It makes me sick
Blistering
Feeling helpless – bound and gagged
A tortured – existence
In a room, nailed to the floor
Every few hours, someone comes in and beats me
Nazi Killer (infest cover)
====================================================================
Shotgun Facelift split tape
Invertebrate
I'm not that big
I'm not that strong
but I'm not gonna take your shit anymore
I'll tear you apart!
to prove, you're fucking spineless
leech
sucking, feeding, living off everyone else
no matter how much i give it's never enough
never fucking enough
chopped off heads
drown in the blood
of the decapitated bodies we leave behind
torture and mangle
leave nothing alive
off with your heads!
butcher and cleave!
as your poison courses through my veins
Peering from a bandaged face
I can see you slowly mind fuck me
courses these veins!
And with every agonizing breath
I accept your crude form of torture
… As your poison courses through these veins
treacherous fucks
hypocrite and a liar
scum of the earth
you deserve death
your suffering in life
will be nothing compared the suffering you face in hell
suffer!
crawl on your belly
lying through your fucking teeth
stab me in the back
while looking into my eyes
you will get yours
===================================================================
Demos I & II
maggot eaten brains
my brain swells infested by maggots and puss
i cringe
as the puss slowly drains from my eyes
bottom feeder
lifestyle of shit, living off excrement
useless and pathetic
mindless and docile
I'd almost feel sorry for you
if it wasn't your fault
oubliette
pain torture
inconceivable misery
my body rots from the inside
Maggots crawl through my eyes
lost all hope
I'll never get alive
of the OUBLIETTE
check the pulse
burnt the blackest of blacks
skin charred like coal
body lies limp
forced down the abysmal hole
somethings never truly die
before you bury the body
check the pulse
self deprecation
self deprecating thoughts
of wanting to die
just end my life!
God, end my life
it gets worse day after day
if you think my life is fucking great
then why don't you take it away
self deprecating thoughts
of wanting to die
swear to God
I'll end my life
Lamentation
hopelessly lost,
in pessimistic despondency
endless torment
drowning in my own shit
living an endless cycle of pain
called lamentation
bitter and dejected
with only myself to blame
misery loves company
so welcome the oncoming pain
flies to shit
masses of consumers
mindlessly consuming worthless shit
what happiness
human greed buys
a capitalist system
bastardized
just kill yourself
kill yourself - dead
attrition
worked from birth
worked to death
suffer corrosion
forced attrition
wasting time, waiting for death
waste my life, for needless shit
waste of life!
waste of time!
attrition
slow deterioration
you've outgrown your usefulness
experience the cycle of attrition
gag reflex
mouth pried open
force fed shit
my eyes roll back
as i start to choke
the vomit flows from my mouth
excruciating agony
choking the shit you feed me
how much more can i take?
fetal position
hopelessness
sealed inside this coffin
there's no way out
trapped inside
can't see out
hospital mishap
came in healthy, then they drugged you up
opium codeine, they fucked you up
placebo induced smile,
living a hospital dependent lifestyle
once you were human, they left you a cripple
unable to think, unable to feel
emotionally barren, spiritually handicapped
surgically removing your wallet from your hands,
now it's time to pull the fucking plug
choke
hacked with a meat cleaver
screaming in pain
laugh at you
as you struggle in vein
choke - on your blood, as i strangle you
suffer - choke!