To all of those I've loved before…who've walked in and out my door…and those that stick around for the spice :) LOL!!!

(Yes Julio Iglesias I know that ages me LOL!!!!! And I did use creative license to change a word or two.)

Ok so I had an epiphany last night, a major ah ha moment whilst talking with a Gal Friend – thank-you friend  (note picture of Taco bell dog, with head tilted to the side and that cute voice ;), that's the tone I'm using there :) LOL!!!!)

Ok back to my serious voice ;) LOL!!!!!!  Firstly in order to make my next statement I need to clarify what I mean by love as I think I may be a bit confused or at least I know what I feel and the world is just full of shit, either way clarification is needed.  Love to me is many things.  When I use the word love, I mean any intimate feelings from my heart that I feel for another person from early beginnings of the fluttering feelings when you are just beginning to get to know each other, friendship, kinship, the love that is shared by friends who have know each other for years and years or even just a little while but they've shared so much it feels like forever, the kind of love you have for your siblings & your family,  a sense of knowing - a feeling like your souls have known each other in the past, to deep intoxicating passion you would feel for a lover, to the feeling that you see in the eyes of two elderly people who look upon each other with the kind of love you has grown from years of commitment, trials, joys and time shared, the full spectrum from A to Z.  So in fact I guess my definition or the meaning behind the word love I've used here could be anything from infatuation, friendship, lust, love (what a complex word), by any other's definition - "that which we call a rose
      By any other name would smell as sweet"–Romeo & Juliet/Shakespeare

If I "love" someone - anyone for that matter, friend, family member, lover, ex, future love, a person who only features for a minute, an hour, a day, a week or a year, however long, however deep or however slight, whom ever, whenever and however, on My Scale of Love, well that is a gift I have given them in which they may do anything with, that they feel like.  I've shared a piece of myself, since in opening yourself up to another person is an expression of love and is a gift.

Gifts don't come with rules, regulations, specifications, expectations (now that's the biggie for me), or any other strings attached for that matter.  What a weight has been lifted off my shoulders with this new mind set, it clarifies and simplifies so much for me, sets me free of the bonds I have created for myself.  Well now that does not give you jerks out there who have hurt me with your flippant approach to the gift I gave you or made me feel bad about being me - a free ticket, or let my friends and family off the hook for not being supportive or being judgmental or just plain not being there for me when I've needed them, but it does give me power, the power to let it all go, to forgive and forget which is my ultimate lesson I have been learning in this moment in time.

So to the world I say thank-you for the lesson!

Tracy