Things are tough for lots of people these days I know. Unemployment sucks!!! My music and my close circle of people is all I seem to have theses days but I cant fall back to old demons. Its gets so disheartening, I beg people to listen to my music and tell me what you think and the comments have all been awsome. Thats great and all but I'm still not playing out I dont have a band I still go on every audition that comes around ,Still with no gig. Am I not good enough?, what is it, I was all ways told that If your true to your self all would be ok , Even thats getting harder. Its fucked up I know and I hate to beg but If everyone who said they loved my music bought just one of my tracks I could eat this week or fix my jeep or get my gear fixed . Its one day away from my birthday and feeling that much older, I have to try now before Im dead , I lost so much time trying to live how I was expected to,  not how I wanted to . It was so much easier then, Its easy to talk a good game , to be a "never was".  you know what  thats bullshit because the shitty feeling doesnt go away , you still blame everyone else because its too hard to look inside and no asshole its you , all my life I was told holy fuck dude youve got skills on that fucking guitar, you could be someone with that thing, thats all I did I never tryed and pointed at everyone else say how the fuck could that guy make it Im better than that. but I wasnt because I didnt try. the fucked up thing is it might be too late . I so would rather of been a has been than a never was !!!
Im on Rhapsody too