This Rollercoaster

This boy puts me on a rollercoaster

In one moment I am sad, and the next all aflutter

Too late I realized that he was to be

The one in whose eyes perfection I would see.

So when he smiles, my heart soars

And with each deliberate wink I long for more

Of the passion which I know between us exists

Cumulating in the embrace… the sigh… the kiss.

But this rollercoaster is indeed a bumpy ride

For there are times when I do sigh and must swallow my pride

When I see him engaged animatedly with another

And I am convinced that he really isn't worth the bother.

 And so with bolstering words to myself I mutter,

"I am worth more, so much more that this nutter

Who doesn't seem to recognize the unrestrained passion only I can deliver

Nor the sensual massages, nor my tantalizing gaze that remains come hither."

And so plays on this dreadful ride

Of highs and lows which ebb like the moon tide

Until sooner (rather than later) I quickly discover

My true intentions have remained under cover.

For I am not in love with this man but the rollercoaster

This giddy ride that spins me and thrills me and makes my eyes all aglitter

And he is no more than a pawn to my treacherous mind

And this rollercoaster ride is where my heart truly resides!