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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 92
Sign: Leo

City: EARTH
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/12/2006
Sunday, December 02, 2007 

Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
Time has come again to visit ourselves and allocate our good and bad deeds toward society. Assessing what good and bad has come to us.

The word superfluous came to mind when trying to make myself feel better about 2007.
Superfluous :
1. being more than is sufficient or required; excessive.
2. unnecessary or needless.
3. Obsolete. possessing or spending more than enough or necessary; extravagant.

This year I lost my possesions but I gained great insight. What really matters comes to unfold in the midst of a personal crisis. I emotionally beat myself up and others on my journey. I tried to put "good" labels on deeds I provided to others and I often put "bad" labels on others who I morally judge and who judge me.
My life has been harsh and unforgiving and no matter what I did nothing got better until I stopped myself. I wondered if I have ever been truly happy?  I want to be happy and this year was not happy nor have the past years of my life.
So this year I assessed what I could focus on and change so that next year and the years to come will be worth living.
Life truly is worth living even in the midst of a fucking Crisis. This year I learned survival skills and they are simpler than I ever imagined.

I have to remember to always be accountable for myself before I hold anyone else accountable for my down falls.

I learned to be grateful  for all the little things that got me through my days. Yes, and in being grateful, I did not feel that I had lost anything material. I learned diginity, humility and peace in my heart and mind. More than I ever had when I had "everything".
Before my downfall this year, I swore to never eat McDonald's. I was hungry and needed a place to stay. St Vincent de Paul gave me a voucher for a hotel and a couple of coupon books for McDonald's. I ate McDonald's though when in my Queenly thrown, I frown upon fast food and mock those who eat it. I ate McDonald's food and it was good this particular day. I was grateful to see the light which is beyond my Ego, my opinions, and judgmental "moral" beliefs.
I also learned about Opinions and the impact they have on others and myself. "Ego" strength.
 Believe it or not there are harsh consequences for One's opinions especially when used to wrong the Astral Universe.
Accountability for my actions was not just a basic understanding of "my moral beliefs" though in my mind they seem intently good. My opinions have they any merit?I am not sure? But my gut feeling tells me that my actions have to be useful  else I am doomed to fail to learn life's lessons. My attitude toward myself has to improve before I can appreciate others.   I am just one little ant in this world but when I am with the other ants I am not alone. I am useful.

superfluous spell
for this coming year
Beget and put love in all intentions toward self, others and of course nature (Earth).
Bring peace into the astral universe
what begets is a direct consequence from your thoughts and actions.
Let life live through you
Seek patience, and try to react less from the ego.
What you produce and reproduce in your psyche is not just yours but ours. Your spiritual energy befalls you
 like when skin cells die and fall off the body everyday.
Peace in mind, heart and spirit
Bring forth hope and love to humanity
Provide this spell to your spirit.
Bring awareness to visions and light into all matter.

Blessed Be to those who ponder on these words.
God, Goddess and the Astral whole
Help me today and always.
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Nuclear Skull

 
I NEVER have to ask "WHY I like you so much" NEVER.
 
Posted by Nuclear Skull on Saturday, December 08, 2007 - 7:55 PM
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