Ever gotten caught up in something that you feel has merit, yet isn't taken by others as something of importance?  Lately I've really felt forsaken in that sense.  I've had this overflow of emotion and I've been trying to put my thoughts into perspective.  I half-heartedly explain something in passing error and it's been taken to mean something entirely different, even to the point that it's incorrect.

Just because I say I'm willing to move away in jubulance and that I am happy to finally be out of my house does not mean that I in any way, shape, or form want to abandon and forsake my friends.  I feel so misunderstood in the sense that my exclamation of leaving my childhood is being confused with me wanting leaving people.  If If I ever give the impression that my words are meant to be taken as a rude fare-well then slap me in the face and tell me that I am wrong. Because I can honestely say that I have never wanted to that to anyone.

I've been accused of having too much emotion in certain areas and taking things too personal.  But is that so wrong?  In a world that's been distorted by evil and sin, maybe it's a good thing to hold on to raw emotion, because honestly, that's all we have as humans.  I feel as a people we've been broken down by society to act as they act, when we should be above that.  Every day sin that should be looked down and shunned by christians has become something we're used to, something we've adapted to.  Our hearts have been chiseled at by the world into believing that this is the norm, when really we're just handi-capping ourselves with too much acceptance and lienency when we should be adamant about what's right.

But I guess I'm just being sensitive.  Maybe I just need to chill out and quit making a big deal.  A very famous quote comes to mind and it is something I literally fear will happen to me, something I'll become.  This might not be the correct connotation that Shakespeare meant, but it's relevant none the less.  I don't want to become a tale told by an idiot,  full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing.  I need to know.  Am I just making a big deal out of nothing and should I let things go when I see wrong?  Or do I need to make mention?  Do I need to raise the volume? 

All I know is I out of many of the friendships that I have and all the emotion that is stored within them... love has taken a backseat to allow other, less wholesome feelings to enter in.... and I can't help but think that it's my own fault.