We still don't know anything yet ABOUT OUR DAUGHTER'S "DISSAPEARANCE", 

the blood samples taken from her apt STILL haven't come back yet, 

I suspect some actualy murders have bumped it in time

 since they are priority. They assure me as soon as they

 come back they'll call me. I wouldn't be surprised to see

 it's hers however it's not enough to indicate a murder was 

committed. 

My heart is trying to prepare myself for the 

news of the blood taken from her carpet and wall. Today is

 exactly 5 weeks since we reported her missing...it will be

 a diffucult day I suspect(only if I allow it though), 

please continue to hold our family before GOD...

I KNOW IT WORKS !! I feel his comfort thru his angels on

Earth and the Holy Spirit, the embrace is a strong one and

 so comforting to me. Sometimes I cry but I need to cleanse

 myself and that's OK too!!

I'D BE IN THE HOSPITAL SUFFERING A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN 

IF GODS LOVE WAS NOT B4 and AROUND ME NOW...

IT'S especially DIFFUCULT  in not knowing anything or

 being able to do much more than I already have. 

I know there is hope to be found but sadly "no news 

is good news" applies here, but it feels as though the

 more time goes by things start to fade away, each day

 getting up is a little easier, people ask less about if

 we've heard anything.

Ineed to protect my heart and I feel GOD does that 

so I must trust my anxiety being lessened is from him 

and TRY to go back to my life as it was...

Then comes the mothers curse...of COURSE I WONDER,

 OF COURSE I AM ANXIOUS 

FOR THE COMINGS AND GOINGS OF ALL MY FAMILY, 

ALMOST TO A DESPERATE LEVEL AND UNHEALTHY ONE.

 BUT I HAVE BEEN PREPARING MYSELF FOR THE WORST, 

BUT I WANT TO HAVE HOPE, I'M SO AFFRAID TO HAVE IT

 BECAUSE CAN BE DASHED SO QUICKLY...AND THEN THE COLLAPSE 

IS TWICE AS BAD THEN I WOULD BE NO GOOD TO NO ONE. A CREED

 I LIVED BY WAS HOPE FOR THE BEST, PREPARE FOR THE WORST. 

NOW IT'S MORE LIKE PREPARE FOR THE WORST, HOPE FOR THE BEST. 

JUST by turning the phrase around it places a different 

emphasis on things...I have always like good news before

 bad anyway!

Well I must go for now...Hugs to family and friends,

 and all others out their in cyber-land. Donna A.