This all started because Marnie said I hadn't wrote a blog in a long ass time, so here I go, even though she may be the only one to actually read it. Lol….
I don't go to Boca High anymore, but rather John I Leonard. I liked how the Boca school was set up much more better but I really didn't have much of a choice, besides, I have a bit more friends here and my boyfriend. Even though, well, I do miss Max a lot, and some other people too- and I'm sure they miss me a bit, but not so much as to where they call me actually wanting to hang out so why bother trying right? If they cared, they would do it. After all, I'm the one who left. >.> I cant wait for prom. I have been raving about it a lot. If Marnie doesn't end up going to the JIL one for her senior year I will be so pissed. I still don't know if I will go or not without her. I mean, then I will have to buy a whole new dress and everything for senior prom to but…oh well, Sarah will be there, John and Juan which wont be around next year ether. Besides, I don't know if I will even have Lyndon in another year anyway and I don't wont to miss my chance to go with him because I know if I'm not with him next year, I will be just going with some girls- which wont even be Marnie since she wont be there and trust me, I haven't met one guy yet in the school that I could even THINK of ever dating (besides Lyn who I'm with already, of course.) So I'm trying to rush and get my dress, hair stuff and everything because I know my mom will forget and wait until the last minute. Been stressing about school, trying to get grades up and wonder what's going on for SATs.
In other news, this 8th was me and Lyndon's 6 months of going out (Half a year bitch! So sounds cooler and longer). I'm so happy. He is a pretty awesome crazy kid. <3 I think the best I have. Well, that I dated long enough to tell if they were great or not. To bad I didn't get rid of that other bad seed sooner or I could have been with Lyndon longer. …But, perhaps not, things could have changed, so I cant wish it back. I'm just glad I pushed off everyone in my life that just gave me drama and annoyed me, leaving only the good. And although because of no drama my life isn't as 'exciting' as it could be, I wouldn't have it any other way. Its good like this and I can savor the good times better this way. Parties and crazy shit will be better, more value, since their rare. The last "real" party I have been to was back in October. –shivers- I think I need to get out more. But I do see Lyndon a lot, so much half the time its like living with him- and for some reason it feels good and we only want to see each other more. Its odd, really, for I'm so used to getting so bored so quickly and just wanting my guy to go and not only that, fights all the time. I swore, me and Lyndon haven't fought….ever. Maybe some annoyances where we just shut up until the other comes snuggling up to the other like the kitty of puppy they are- but that's it. –WIDEEYES- Amazing no? I really do think so. I think its going pretty great, I don't know what to think of it. And although some of his family doesn't all like me that much, or perhaps, even hate me, I don't let it get me too down, for, after all, I don't think Lyndon is going anywhere. I guess it was worth all the wait to get him. I'm in love and actually not hating it, not thinking there is going to be some great downfall and it would hurt to much to even think of one- so I cant. Which leaves me wondering what that part of my future might hold, which seems the only part of my future I'm eager for.
Kokomo by the Beach Boys is on, I'm singing, Lyndon got me sick cause he got himself sick. This song reminds me on when me and Marnie were singing it in the McDonalds making Lyn want to shoot off his head. I miss her. I don't see her as much anymore. She has a lot of things going on and a lot of people wanting to be around here which takes up my time with her. I don't complain much cause it leaves more time for me and Lyndon being alone and all- but I cant help that, I love him, but I do miss my friend a lot. Things were so much better when she lived at our old neighborhood. I can't even stay the night with her- EVER!! We cant scream and have fun, roll on the ground watching NEXT until 5 in the fucking morning on the living room floor. The place is dirty cause of the guys, small and breakable and hell, Josh pretty much lives there now. Its not just 'us' anymore, which sucks. But perhaps I just have to suck it up. After all, soon Marnie will be in college which will be even more of a change I will hate. Maybe I'm just being a selfish baby.