I've kinda brought to my own attention that i'm very awkward, heh, my mind runs away with me in certain situations.. i seem to think things should be perfect even though i know they really can't be. I have it in my head everyone is out to get me and hurt me.
I have trouble in relationships cos of this.
Makes them think i don't trust in them and stuff, makes it all very hard. :0(
Makes me wanna just hide myself so i can't be in line to be hurt. Sounds shit but thats it in black in white.

I don't feel like a very strong person, emotionally. I find it very hard to express the torment even though to some in the net world, its all i seem to do.

I feel one day i'm all kind of sorted with what i want and the next day i feel i havn't decided anything. Like, i live on impulse, kinda worries me.
Part of me thinks it could be to do with my OCD.

Until the day i like myself and believe in myself alot more is probably gona be the day i'm about to kick the bucket. Typical. :0p

Anyway, i'm mainly just unloading, i feel very 'blocked' in my head.