Some people like to harbor all sorts of hatred and resentments over things that are relatively minor or are simply misunderstandings. The people that really know me well, know much differently. However, there are plenty of folks that get hung up in the so-called scene and are easily swayed by bullshit and situations about which they know nothing.

I don't need that sort of fun. To the few friends that get it.. thanks, to those that don't.. I wish you the best. I'm certain that all of the other people out there are great and useful. They certainly care about you more than I ever would.

Being jaded and bitter is a bitch.

I am always encouraged when I hear one thing, then months or years later, suddenly I discover that I was simply fooled.

There are a couple of people that I miss terribly, but to take the advice of at least one trusted (almost) friend, I am better off without the two people in question. I know that if my back was against the wall, there is no one upon which I can count but myself. I am tired of not being believed. I am tired of people assuming they know shit, but instead I am forced to defend myself at each fucking encounter. If people don't want to believe me, but would rather believe meth addicts or junkies, then whatever.. That's their deal. I can accept it.

Cyncism isn't a fun thing, but god-dammit, it is reality. I've discovered that most love is bullshit and most everyone cares about others only as much as it helps themselves. I am the moron for trusting and believing in people. Lesson learned. People aren't inherently good aparently. People are fucking mean, cruel and most of the time blinded by their own insanity to realize just what the fuck they have sabatoged.

I hope he and she realize one day that there are a few people out there that care about them and that I am one of them.

Some of you might think this is about you, it probably isn't. I am simply commenting on the state of things in general.