12-29-03

....I suddenly found myself in a house (and here's where tonight's dreams get GOOD!) where I knew that a 'spirit' or 'ghost' of a deceased elderly man was to be found.   I located him almost immediately and asked him...(*note/ I could see him at times...yet there were moments where I could only 'Hear' his thoughts)...why he was still hanging around.

He stated that he didn't know why or what to do, just that he knew that he was dead.  I then asked him if he believed in God.  He replied that he didn't think so...or something to that effect.  At this point we began to walk outside.

It was dark outside and we were on a sidewalk.  I had a comic book in my hand and I pretended to be be reading it as we walked and I talked to him. There were people passing us and I knew that they couldn't see him and I didn't want to draw alot of attention by seeming to talk to myself. (*note/ It's funny but I actually had/have internal thoughts, feelings and emotions in some dreams...including this one)

I began telling him about how God exists-maybe not how most people envision God to exist-but as a Conscious Energy or Force of Love and Light.  He said something which I don't actually reacall but it was something to do with doubt.  I kept on saying 'We are all just Divine Sparks of Him...sent here to accumulate Experience and our capacity to Love..." etc...

He interrupted again, at which point I turned to where I knew he was standing (He was not visible at this time) and said..."Look at it this way...you yourself said you were dead, yet you and I are here having this conversation...."

After a moment he then said something like "I have brown spots on me" or "I'm getting brown spots on my body."  This made me happy because I realized that something I had said to him had helped him and that he was now 'moving on' form this stage.  I said something like " That's because the body you now exist in is also dying and you are about to move on to the next phase."   I was very excite and felt very, very happy. 

Suddenly I was back in my bed and I thought I was waking up in 'Real-Life'-but it was still a dream. ( I really thought this part was me being awake in my Physical Body till I awoke later)   I woke Nicky up and told her about what had just happened to me and she said  "...Good, because I just saw a ghost in our kitchen."  This time, for some reason, I felt very frightened/uneasy...( I was really scared...?) as she described going into the kitchen and seeing the ghost of a lady she remembered seeing in her chilhood home when she was much younger.  She said that the ghost was acting like she was washing dishes and then had followed Nicky back into our bedroom.  ( again, I thought that I was awake and even had the thought that Nickys parents were sleeping in our guest room...which in reality they were...they were visiting us at the time)

I told Nicky that the ghost had followed her Mother here but in the back of my mind I had the thought that the ghost was actually attached to Nicky's father...?)

That's when something poked me in the back and-being frightened-tried to bury myself in the covers.  I quickly realized that hiding wouldn't help so I got up and decided to walk to the kitchen so that I could see what I could do.  Nicky was up too and was suddenly infront of me and I remember wanting to Hide behind her (I really cant explain why in this 'dream' I was so frightened) 

We walked up to a door ( I was no longer in my house at this point, but it was still a place i recognized so the transition didn't seem odd at the time) and I pushed it open.  I remember trying to say my prayer again (see first dream entry), but my voice only came out in a low, garbled, deep growl-like voice.  I was becoming upset that my voice didn't work, and I kept feeling something, which I couldn't see, grabbing my lower leg.  

Something changed and I suddenly regained my composure and began to 'Kick' my way through the door and into the room.  Once inside, I noticed a bed next to a window and several people and a child (around 10yrs old) walking around the room.   I made my way toward the bed and then became aware that something 'Bad" was in here with me.

I sat down on the bed and looked around the room, and then began visualizing a white shield coming out of the 'Third Eye'' area of my head to surround my body. (one of my meditation practices)  My fear began to lessen and although I couldn't see it (the shield) I knew that the visualization was working.  I kept the mental image going and began to focus on the people ( I think i was attempting to see their auras) 

My attention was immediately drawn to the child and I then said "I see you as a boy and I also see what's on the Inside..." or "..What's inside you!"  (*note..my memory of words and conversations in my dreams is always VERY clear..though most likely not word for word the general conversation is ALWAYS remembered.)

At this point the child became a Gray shadow-like figure with glowing eyes and I reached my hand out toward him.  I saw or envisioned (not sure which) my hand outlined in a Glowing White Light as I placed my palm against his forehead.  I started concentrating on the 'Glow' around my hands and then the gray shadow started to grow weaker and the image of the child began to flicker stronger and stronger.  The boy began to sob and ask me for help as the image of the shadow faded from sight and then was gone.

I stepped back and sat on the bed as some of the people helped the child to his feet.  I was again feeling happy and pleased to have helped him and then looked down at my hand. That's when I noticed that it had what looked like maggotts on my first two fingers and palm. 

Oddly, I didn't panic and knew that it was an illusion-I remember showing my hand to someone close by and telling them what I saw there ( I knew that they couldn't see it)  Still, they seemed to find it disgusting and I laughed as I placed my right hand over my left (the left had the maggotts) and focused on the glowing white light again.  When I removed my right hand the maggotts were gone.

Again I looked around the room and saw that a woman was walking toward me...and realized that I had to do it all over again.   I said something like " I can do this all day, you know..." and flet surprisingly FULL of Energy.  I removed the presence from her, but this time I walked over to the window and made several pushing or throwing motions outside.( I suppose to be rid of what ever it was)

At this point I walked to the door and out of the room and the dream changed again, slightly, and I realized I was supposed to go 'Downstairs'  I went down and found several more people with bad or negative auras. There was a group of women, all dressed the same, and saw that they had black/green auras....

The dream goes on from there...but that's the general concept that I wanted to post.  I made a note at the bottom of my entry that reads as follows...

These dreams were very intense and seemed Very distinct and Crisp, colorful and most importantly REAL.  The odd thing is that even though I slept through the entire night I feel VERY DRAINED, Very TIRED today.   I really feel like I didn't sleep AT ALL!  My eyelids are heavy and I feel like my eyes have sand in them.  I'm physically and mentally EXHAUSTED!! No exageration.  Even my friend today told me that I don't look too good.

That's it for now.  Hope you enjoyed!