this is how i feel right now



 PISSED OFF!!! AT EVERYTHING AND NOTHING AT THE SAME TIME!!!! FUCK THE WORLD! FUCK THIS LIFE! FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE!!! I BROKE MY CELL PHONE BECAUSE MY MOM PISSED ME OFF TODAY... SHORT FUSE? HELL NO! I DON'T HAVE A FUSE TODAY.... I'M JUST SO FUCKIN MAD!!! WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS LIFE? I HATE EVRYTHING ABOUT IT... I FEEL LIKE I'LL NEVER GET THE HAPPINESS I WANT.... A GOOD RELATONSHIP WHERE I DON'T FEEL USED OR MISUNDERSTOOD. A JOB THAT I LIKE AND I GET THE PAY I DESEVRE. I'M SO SICK OF SONIC! AND JIM! AND THIS STUPID $4.23 AN HOUR+(nonexsistent)TIPS! I HOPE SONIC BLOWS UP! I FUCKIN HATE EVERYTHING! DRINKIN AND SMOKING ARE ONLY TEMPORARY RELIEFS... RYAN I FUCKIN LOVE YOU... YOU MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD LAST NIGHT AND FORGET MY SHITTY FUCKIN EXSISTENCE FOR LIKE, 2 HOURS. WE NEED TO GET OUR LIVES IN ORDER. I WISH I HAD A CAR SO I COULD JUST ESCAPE ANY TIME I WANTED! JUST LEAVE AND DRIVE UNTIL I'M SO FAR AWAY FROM THE PAIN. I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT. I'M SO FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD I FEEL LIKE I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP (THAT I CAN'T AFFORD) I WISH I COULD JUST DIE! BUT WHO KNOWS WHAT HAPPENS AFTER THAT? MAYBE I'M BETTER OFF ALIVE, MAYBE I CAN WORK SHIT OUT INSTEAD OF ROTTING IN THE GROUND...