So here I sit, in my ex-girlfriends bed as she showers and gets ready for work in the room beside me. I'm here in Fresno, California for my Spring Break visiting her... Let me give you some background.

So, let's call her Fermilda... Fermilda and I have known eachother for quite a few months through some mutual friends on the other side of the country. We began talking every single day, all day long for about two months and even though we live cross-country from one another we started 'dating', at least as much as you can date someone that lives in California and you're in Illinois. For me, it was a first, I think long distance relationships are bullshit and I'm almost excstatic that this situation has proved my thoughts correct. So, Fermilda came out to Chicago to visit me for a week a month and a half ago and things went swimmingly. I don't think they could have went any better! She stayed the entire week, we went out, drank, she met my friends and as she left we felt ten times closer to one another. Over the past month or so, we've been talking about her moving to Chicago because I needed a roommate and her Mom is kicking her out of her place here in Fres-ho.

So... To jump forward to yesterday, Fermilda heads to work (because she works like eight hours everyday that I'm here) and a few hours into work she gives me all these texts about how she doesn't think that we're right for one another. I call her and the main point that she stated was, "I just don't think that I can fully open up to you... I'm afraid that you'll pass judgement on me." But, doesn't everyone pass judgement? And even that, not as if I would
dislike someone or hate her for what she tells me, it just helps me
form an opinion about who someone is. She then starts asking me if I can stay anywhere else the rest of the time I'm here. What?! Ya, of course I have someplace to stay in a city and part of California that I've never been to in my life. So, she says all of that (AFTER I've already dropped $200+ to fly out here and am sitting in her bed) she then says that she wants to pick up some wine (and a toothbrush for me because I forgot mine!!) and talk about things over dinner after she's off of work.

A few hours pass and I'm a bit upset, but I don't want to ruin my Spring Break over some bullshit break up I want to make the best of things and still have a good time. I leave her house and walk a few miles and step into the first bar that I see. I have a few beers and a few hours pass, I await her phone call at 7:30 when she is supposed to be off... Thirty minutes pass... An hour passes... Two hours pass... So I decide to walk back to her place, three miles away (I kinda thought she would pick me up, but whatever, I'm a man, I can walk this shit). I end up getting to her hosue and her Mother answers the door, "Oh.. I didn't know that you were gone! I thought Kristin was with you? - Nope.. - Oh, her phones been off and she got off of work a few hours ago. - Oh, I know.. - *long pause* I'm sorry, I wish there were something that I could do, but she's 22.. - I know, I'm not holding anything against you. Thanks for your hospitality but you know your daughter better than I do." So I come back into her room and jump online, bored, drink a bit from the half pint of Canadian Reserve that I picked up on my walk home.

So, come 5am in the morning she wanders in all quietly like I won't notice. So, she blows off our talk, our wine, our dinner and basically ruins my first day of vacation. Needless to say, I'm single. ;) ... and still never got my toothbrush. :(