Since I was told this the other day, it has weighed heavy on my mind.
A friend of mine died the other, not exactly sure when but we do know how. He apparently stopped taking his insulin and for all of you who know what that is you usually die if you don't take it, just like if I stop taking my seizure meds I would probably have seizures. Well I have a pit of a different out look on this situation. Yes granted to me he was a friend, but he also did cause pain and frustration in others.
This is going to be a funny comparison but he kind of reminds me of my ex-wife, he wasn't exactly the best person to get along with; unless you were his friend. Around X-mas time he was have suicide thoughts, but as a friend I tried to describe to him the value of life. Life is a very presence thing and shouldn't be wasted. Yes there are hardships and yes you may have to depend on others sometimes but shit happens. There is no excuse to terminating yourself because you think it would be better then being a burden on others. I could go on and on with this point but all you who read this probably get the idea.
For all his faults I did value his company and input on things. It was challenging talking with him on subject's of life; I had formulate my inquiries and answers in such a way that he would have to do the same.  Our conversations would go all night if we didn't start playing or talking about world of warcraft of course...:)
I deeply saddened and upset at the same time;
How can someone of such intelligential prowess end himself. Yes for all his faults, and who doesn't have those we are not perfect. But why,  I have suicide thoughts before I know what those feelings are like. But I pulled myself out of my deep hole of depression. Maybe it was because I had my son as my life anchor I don't know. But from my studies of the human mind, if we convince ourselves to do something we will do it; no matter what anyone says or does we will make it happen some way or another.

This whole thing teaches me one thing,

Your life is so valuable; it could end at any moment. You can die from anything anywhere. You should not waste it; you should not bicker over small unimportant things, you should not be reckless. You should treasure the little time you have with your loved ones, with your friends, with that book you love to read when you get home from work. Do not take anything for granted. Because one day, you may get a phone call telling you that a dear friend has ended his life.
I will miss you my friend.

The value of life is measured on a scale that has no limit.

(Because of Myspaces many errors it won't let me post the song I'm listening too;
so I have to type it out.  The song title = Open Arms    Artist = Journey     )