I guess this is the time where people are supposed to make resolutions and pretend they're going to follow up on things that they should have been doing anyway.

The new year is only good for inspiration to start fresh. Although we can't take back things in the past, and it will always be a part of who we are.

I want to try to make something of myself in 2009. I want to quit being socially anxious or force myself to get over it. I know it's not that simple, because i've been trying for as long as i can remember.
First step is getting organized. Maybe my head can be cleared better.

As far as being in a relationship. I'm about ready to say forget it. It's been about a year and a half, and he can't take back what he's done, as well as i'm constantly being reminded of something that will always be a part of who he is, no matter how much he denies it. I am not getting over it, nor do i think i ever will. But I am not sure what to do about it yet.

I can't let anyone stand in the way of me and who I want to be. I hold my morals high, and nobody can change that, and I can't let someone make me feel like I want to do things I wouldn't normally do out of spite.
I am lucky to have the bestest of best friends who feel the same way I do and we support each other in our decisions. Ashley and Amanda who i talk to on a daily basis make the world a bit easier to deal with. They make me sure of my decisions because our moral isn't exactly what's popular. I think I would probably only trust them with my life, as long as ones husband isn't involved :-P

And i've realized that just because I don't live my life the way most people choose to, doesn't make me any less of a person. 2009 can bring it on :)