I want to start by saying I hate country music but I can listen to it. I don't mind the old country and bluegrass, but the new stuff just cuts deep. While I was waiting on Moms car to be checked out at the repair shop, I saw this viedo on CMT. Yes, I know, why continue to watch it? Well I couldn't change the channel and even if I had the remote I probably would have kept it on. The song is very close to how I feel right now. I can't shake the memories, I can't help but wonder how it could have been fixed. I'm constantly talking with friends and family who keep telling me I need to move on and live my life. It's going to be alright they say.

But this time of the year is bad for me. She just left... She didn't even make a serious attempt to work on the problem with me. Just a bunch of lies and empty promises. I do have to say, though, that I have not sank into "the bottle" like the song implies for Garth. And in fact I have actually gone the other way. Even though I have been moving back into the church it's still hard and pains my heart. To know that I will be able to move on, eventually, and still see the future pain that the boys will inevitably have to deal with.

Well, I guess it's time to check on the car and see how things are going.

Blogged about the music video by Garth Brooks - More Than A Memory