Mixology
I don't perform as much as I'd like too. For many reason's that have become more obvious to me. Many Artist that I have come to know who now suffers from burnout have put into my head that they have reached dissatisfaction from the passion turning into a job rather than a hobby and come to resent it. So I protect that privilege because I'm at a point in my life where I just want to have fun. ....
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There was a group back in the 70's named Bloodstone. They introduced me to the term "natural high". I would play that song over and over in quadraphonic stereo and listen as that term reverberated in my head. "Take to the sky on a natural high." What did they mean: Boone's Farm vs. Weed? Too young to understand what and how love will make you feel. I tucked that question deep into my subconscious until now I can answer it.....
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I can't wait to flood my bloodstream with endorphins, serotonin, and adrenalin each time that I perform. I'm feeling so good up there before you on this self induced concoction. I try to turn my burned out friends on to this mix and a few can tap in and relate; the other's still want to depend on an exogenous mix. I find that at times I'm the only one tweaking. Sometimes after the show I may have a drink or two, to self medicate just to, bring myself down. It's a delicate balance between the distillates, the fermented and the naturalistic. Too little will have no effects, one too many can mix with the body's own chemicals and have some adverse reaction. You'll wake up the next day feeling an enormous amount of guilt for having act so stupid publicly, then apologizing your whole morning and afternoon away. In this day and age when everyone has a camera, it's not worth the risk. My excuse and my advice: if you don't have a degree in chemistry' don't go mixing chemicals if you don't want the reaction.....
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I have already sent out personal emails and made phone calls to all of those that I may have offended. For all of those that I could not reach consider this my public apology for showing my ass last weekend at the WIB 3 Festival. I had a ball ya'll! And I'm still up in the sky.....