Maths + Throats Split

be the one i need,
be strong for me,
fallen in time with the heartbeat,
a thousand fucking hours,
time (makes me) cough(s) up blood,
every second stings,
her kiss burnt like alcohol,
on the open wound of wasted years,
and love,
destroyer, destroyed,
deserter, deserted,
fallen onto a shoulder,
the weight makes the ground crack,
swallow me whole,
red mouth and lies.
one day i'll be strong for you,
hours and days,
red eyes sting,
even after they turn green again,
try to stay awake,
try to stay alive,
i'll hold your hair back,
as you cough up the sorrow,
blood makes me feel sick,
like my stomuch is full of knives,
but i'll survive for you,
you'll survive for me,
i need you.

info - those are the entire lyrics for the split, i wrote it as one piece. i tried to deal with the issue of love and dependance without coming across too angry. many people see these things as emotions and feelings that tie us down and stop us short of really living. i feel that they are feelings that should be embraced, BUT not relied upon as they have a tendancy, as with all emotions, to be short lived. living side by side with someone that you care about is much more exciting and rewarding than giving your intimacy and heart away to the first person that seems interested. sometimes it takes awhile to realise it, but i hope we all will someday.

II

a love letter written to noone
written in time with my heart
worlds scrawled, dirty the white
when the world collapses
with the weight of my heart
a pen in my throat and letter in hand
i stand up and say "fuck it all"
a self pitying statement
but self pity is better than fucking ignorance
burn the last shread of hope
as the embers envelope your heart
let it burn



IV

wake up!
beauty perspires, every moment is precious,
like the rose.
"this is love, this is light, this is passion, this is my heart"
fuck the heart, murder the soul,
erase my face from act one.
move on,
uproot,
untie the noose.