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Benjamin Little


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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 25
Sign: Virgo

City: Highlands Ranch
State: Colorado
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/19/2005

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December 5, 2006 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  confused
I hate when I am confused.  There are a few things going on right now between work, home and my personal life that are really dragging on me...  We'll go in that order for now...

Work has been kicking my ass.  I have been super busy busting my nuts for what feels like nothing.  I am up late at night drafting forms and putting together ideas to make things work more smoothly.  Unfortunately none of this really matters because I'm not the boss...  That's also chaffing my ass a little bit.  When I first applied here the boss offered me the position as his assistant director and said that I would just need to interview the management and would have the position... If they didn't like me for the job he would still hire me as the lead supervisor.   Well every time I have mentioned this the subject is changed on me and I have gotten no real answer to my questions.  And guess who never got a supervisor position either!  Don't get me wrong, I love my job, and really do enjoy what I do, but I am the only person other than my boss that has been with this company for more than 2 months at this point!  It's just ridiculous!  At the least he could have made me a trainer, then our guys wouldn't be wandering around blind.  But that has yet to happen either!

Home life is ok... I like who I am living with and the place I'm in is ok, but not really up to what I would expect for the money I pay every month.  I am faced with finding a new place at the end of January because if I re sign the lease then, they want to raise the rent, make me pay all utilities, AND get rid of the free cable!  So my 325 a month will probably end up being more like 450 or more!  So far I have seen one possibility, possibly arise, that I really didn't expect to happen, but I would love if it worked.  I know that I could live with this person without us killing each other, I have a trust for this person I cant describe, we like the same things, and we know each other better than most!  The price seems pretty decent too if my math skills are still up to par!  We'll see...  I just can't be stupid and wait until the last minute to look for a place!

And lastly, my personal life, or lack of it...  Between work and work, I don't have much time for anything.  I see my roomy for maybe 15 minutes at night, and 30 in the morning.  I have one REALY great friend who I see all the time, and I am definitely not complaining about that. Its great to know that you have somebody to turn to at any time who is willing to listen to you and hang out almost every time you ask, and always have a good time when you do!  My confusion is coming from the fact I seem to be drifting from my other friends, and not really seeing them or hanging out with them EVER.  I am actually comfortable with that and not afraid of it. Which is what I find odd and confusing.  It may be the fact that I am growing up, and becoming responsible, that makes it so I am not bothered by it.  I see myself hanging out with more people that I feel can help better myself.  I have realized that if I want a future for myself, now is the time, and we only get older.  Which brings me to my next point.  I am single, and have been for quite some time.  Is it the fact that I have not really been looking for anybody?  Could I be hung up on somebody? I don't even fucking know but once again, I am only getting older.  Ok. I have said this alot in the last 6 months...  IM GONNA FUCKIN PUT IT IN WRITING.  I am ready to settle down, start a real career, buy a place, and marry the right girl.   I have stopped smoking weed almost 9 months ago (and it was pretty rare before that), I don't drink when I need to work in the morning, and stopped acting like a dumb ass and just breaking the law for no reason...  I have a career path set up.  For those of you that don't know, I am planning on starting the police academy in February.  This should give me a chance to settle myself further into life, afford a new car, and buy a house.  Then comes the hard part.  I just gotta get the girl!

Well now everybody knows where I am standing in life.  Cheers!

~B
Currently listening:
Redefine
By SOiL
Release date: 23 March, 2004
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~Don't You Wish You Had Me?~

 
Wow baby bro. Glad to hear things are going kinda good for you. Better then my life anyways. But its a trade off, I have what you want and vice-versa. ANyway. Hit me up soon. I miss you!!!
 
Posted by ~Don't You Wish You Had Me?~ on December 5, 2006 - Tuesday - 6:00 PM
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Brandon
Brandon Quillen

 
Hey man, sounds like you're doing well for your self. You're still young yet and have a lot of self discovery to do. Sometimes you have to break away from those you love the most i.e. your best friends because in a way they are holding you back from bettering yourself. It takes a strong individual to see this and to be able to break away. Take me for example. As you may know I got in some trouble and did jail time recently. Leading up to that all I wanted to do was party and spend time with my friends who I loved very much. I didn't want to leave Greenwood because I didn't want to leave them. My jail time has actually taught me though that in order to get my life on the course I want it to be on then i needed to break away from that path. And so far it's workin. You sound like you're making the right decisions. Not saying you should completly abandon your friends but distance yourself enough to get on the path you want to be on. Good luck bro!
 
Posted by Brandon on December 5, 2006 - Tuesday - 7:06 PM
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Z-Drunkard

 
thats what happens when you move to butt-fucking egypt. should i leave the tampons in the bag or should i put them in your purse? ust kidding you lovable douche. but seriously, should i get the slim ones so guys think youre tight? good luck with police academy. dont search my glove box. HA HA... box...
 
Posted by Z-Drunkard on October 11, 2007 - Thursday - 3:24 PM
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