The first time I heard "Seasons Change" by Ashes Remain, I remember being moved by the vocals and the birth of yet another amazing song by my friends. Until recently, it was just another pretty song. About a month ago, it became the song that is defining this particular season in my life. To me it's like a modern day Psalm. I think if King David were alive, he would write something similar. The first part of the song is dark and lonely, expressing the feelings of the particular indiviual, however, the ending screams truth and the absoluteness of the presence of God. Let me explain... About a month ago, the weather conditions in my life went from a beautiful 70 degree sunshiny day to a blinding blizzard in the dead of winter. My happy warm life in FL turned into a very cold and lonely winter w/ no warning. I wanted so badly to be taken away from my situation. I was in shock. Like the song "I wonder when and where I will go, and w/ who I don't know". This past month has been filled w/ uncertainty, fear, and loneliness, however, from the depths of my soul comes a Voice reassuring me that "I AM NOT ALONE, I AM NOT ALONE, I AM NOT ALONE!" This change of season in my life is forcing me to "walk my talk". I say that I believe Jeremiah 29:11 where I'm told that God knows the plans He has for me, plans to prosper me not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future. I guess that's where the end of "Seasons Change" comes in. This declaration that is being sung brings freedom to my soul. It reminds me that my feelings are not the basis of truth, God's Word is. And according to His Word in Jeremiah 29:11 and Deuteronomy 31:8 (The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged), He will not leave me alone to figure this mess out. Season change, life is full of ups and downs, mountains, valleys, good, and bad (and any other cliche you would like to add), but One thing remains the same...Jesus Christ. He is the same today, yesterday, and forever (Hebrews 13:8) It still amazes me that I have a relationship w/ a God that has my best interest at heart. You may be confused by that statement, considering I'm unemployed and the plans I had for my life didn't work out. But that's just it...they were my plans, not God's and when you live a surrendered life to God (read previous blog entry), you are at the mercy of the One to whom you surrendered. And that's just where this independant, strong willed, fiesty, and stubborn women wants/needs to be...surrendered to her Creator. (if you haven't heard this song, check out www.myspace.com/ashesremain)