hmmmm . . . i don't even know how i feel.

i'm depressed.




i'm baffled.



i feel like i'm out on lake that has iced over. and its that slippery sort of ice, not the dry kind when you can actually get a decent footing . . . every time you shift, you fall or nearly fall from the new balance on this slick surface that demands every muscle of your body to maintain an upright position.

And there is no edge to try to "move to" to get off of it -- it is boundary-less. And, there's no telling whether the ice is thick and if you move, is it thick enough to hold you there?

And, even though you are with people, their hand extended in help, and your's to them, its useless because you are all there in the same situation and, to be honest, its better to balance on your own than with anyone else because their zig is your zag and it is just not supportive of any one's individual movement. save, for the moral support ... and that moral support is important in times like the one's we live in now.


every now and then, on the ice, someone tries to move, and they start falling and reach for anything to help them maintain their balance.

their attempt at movement comes with a swirl of motion to retain, regain or establish their balance in their new environment . . . and even though the movement may have been just a baby step to the left or right, today, every movement seems like a whole new reality that requires redefinition of everything the last moment was.

and, if you are standing close to one who's moving, and hopefully you are because you can watch, learn and be inspired to unfreeze your being, you do risk being hit with their flailing limbs, words, emotions, etc.

so, i guess, the lessons of the day are . . .



the game of the universe is one called chaos . . . when your reality bearings get thrown off, breathe in the new reality to reestablish your wherewithal.

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

6 days, maybe . . . or 4 months from now?