I had THE worst bloody nose this morning. It was so bad that if I were home alone I guarantee I would have called 911. It was a never ending fountain that didn't slow. It was a 45 minute fiasco. I'll spare you all the disgusting details, but basically I was not only gushing out thick dark blood constantly, but I was coughing up HUGE clots and choking on the blood. One clot was so big...it was about three inches in diameter all the way around. I coughed it out! I sprayed blood all over the bathroom floor, counters, sink, mirror, door, everyone's toothbrushes, in the toilet, on the soaps on the counter, on my arms, chest, face, legs, hair, everything. I honestly thought I ruptured something in my brain. I was freaking out sooooo badly. Ali was on the phone with her mom (a nurse), so I was trying to get her attention...Liz came in and saw the sink and was like "oh my GOSH...ALI! WE MAY HAVE TO TAKE STEPH TO THE HOSPITAL!" and then Ali heard her and came out and asked her mom what to do. Tilting head back = bad. Pinching your actual nose or even middle bridge = bad. Everything was bad. So I stuffed a [dry] piece of toilet paper in my lip, held a piece under my nose, was pinching my bridge between my eyes, and balancing a piece of frozen chicken on my upper hand to hold it against my nose and forehead. I bet I swalled at LEAST a half pint or a pint of blood. Now my stomach is SO upset and I keep burping up the taste of iron. I feel like there is a huge blood bubble at the top of my chest that is waiting to burst. I feel like I have to vomit but I'm afraid it will be all blood and the pressure will make my nose start gushing again, because when I vomit normal food my nose gets really runny and I can't breathe. I feel so, so sick. I've been drinking water to avoid coughing or sucking, but I think blood and water don't mix well. I have no crackers, just some Kashi Autumn Wheat (think organic natural tasty Frosted Mini Wheats without the frosting). Oooooh man I feel like getting sick all over. I can't handle it. I'm afraid everytime a burp comes up because it tastes sooooo horrible. And all those clots freaked me out so badly. I get clots when I have a bloody nose, but I'm serious...the one was HUGE. It was about the size of a mouse touch pad on a laptop (mine anyway). My stomach is gurgling. Nasty.
I was going to go in and work half a day as Eric is coming up to visit this weekend. I'm afraid to take the bus and train for fear of it all starting again and then UTA having to call HazMat to clean all the blood. I'm afraid of going to Park City today because of the elevation. Ooooh sick I just burped. Nasty.

I'm going to curl up and watch a Shirley Temple movie and try to calm down.