Here's what I wrote last year (I like this tradition):

"So I don't know what 2007 holds. I think it will be a year of planning, silently slinking behind the scenes for world domination. Time for calm contemplation. Time for myself. Time for creativity and music. Time to reconnect. Time to think. Time. In general. I am going to slow down this year, value quality over quantity. It's not a party if it happens every night, you know."

Well 2007 was aight. I did end up valuing quality over quantity. Still a bunch of changes. I'm getting tired of changes. But I'm starting to, maybe, be getting used to it? I moved out of Nana's house and set up shop in a lovely apartment in Glendale, I had the best DJ year of my LIFE!!! The spring was great. I played at Vanguard, at Circus, at EM Sundays, at E3rd Steakhouse...I still want to thank all the great people who came out to see me play, especially my boys of the 4:Score crew. And Brian and Natalie are MARRIED!!! OMG, how great.

After I did a double header at circus and EM Sunday (and moved in the same weekend!!) I just...stopped. I didn't pick up a mixer in months. I just....stopped. I felt guilty about it, too. I think I just was tired of promoting for 3 weeks and then playing for one week for free. It wasn't that I didn't like DJing, I LOVED that part, but it was everything else. I just wanted to stop the schmoozing and just be me.

And the same thing with my job at M-Audio. I loved my job, but I was tired of overlooking all the things I didn't like about it to hold on. So I took a job outside of the M-I industry, for a shot at a decent salary and a chance to grow in my career. I still miss pro audio, maybe I'll go back someday, but for now, I have to see where this leads.

I feel like it was the second half of the year that I started to do what I hoped with 2007. Be myself. Slow down, take time, to slink behind the scenes. So that's where I am right now. I'm working on some tracks (WOOOOO Color of Night!) and I think much headway will be made on that front in 2008. With a little, okay, a LOT of help from my awesome musically talented friends.

The biggest change in 2007 was Ivan leaving. It really has taken a lot of getting used to not having him around. But things have gotten better. Things are okay. And I think whatever happens, it will be okay. But that's the problem....things aren't the best they could be. But my boat is evening out its keel, or something. That's the best i can hope for.

So 2008? My resolution is to watch my mind constantly, for signs of negativity and self doubt, self-defeating thoughts, because really, I'm my own worst enemy. Life is going to deal its cards to me, and until I can deal with things positively, I'm just going to be all the same. A very wise man said, "You life is nothing but what you have thought." So I'm working on thinking differently. Then maybe things can really change for the better. And stay that way. Maybe :)?