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Last Updated: 12/21/2009

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Age: 41
Sign: Sagittarius

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April 13, 2009 - Monday 

I have decided that hooking up for meaningless sex is like that chocolate "flavored" candy you get at Easter, just not satisfying at all. You know the stuff, icky, hard and leaves an aftertaste… then of course there is the candy. The thing is either one is really easy to get especially this time of year it seems. Everywhere I go on line and to some extent real life people are looking to just get laid, “no strings attached.”
 
One thing I have learned, there are always strings attached, even if they are just attached to how you feel about yourself.
 
When you are younger you can fool yourself that it is almost the same as real chocolate (meaningful sex) but deep inside you know better and you want better. Caring about the person, even if you are not madly in love just makes it all so much better, and caring about yourself enough to treat yourself to the good stuff helps as well.
 
As I get older I realize that whatever small pleasure I got from the fake stuff is overshadowed by feeling let down afterwards, feeling as if I had not cared for myself enough to treat myself well and that I had wasted my time and energy.
 
Not to mention when you finally get some decent chocolate (sex where you actually care for the other person) you realize there is no comparison to the cheap crap.
 
So I am finally at a point in my life where I am not willing to settle, I want the good stuff, even if I can't have Godiva I want Dove Select...LOL If I can’t be madly in love I want to at least care and know that I am cared for by the person I am intimate with.
 
Damn it now after writing that I want both Chocolate and sex and I shouldn't eat the first and I don’t have a decent source for the second
11:54 PM
 
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Tot
watt smith

 

I envy you that you can afford to pick and choose like that. I'm mad at whoever gave you chocolate flavored candy at easter, though. That's unforgivable.

 
Posted by Tot on April 14, 2009 - Tuesday - 12:20 AM
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Wulf

 
I agree 100% especially about strings always being attached. When people connect, even on "just a physical level", connections are made and we become to some degree the sum of our connections. Ironicly I was once told I was evil (in jest) and my responce has always been "yes I am eveil, but I am the dark chocolat cany coated version...with nuts!" Thanks for sharing gorgeous!
 
Posted by Wulf on April 14, 2009 - Tuesday - 10:14 AM
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