So things generally suck right now on all plains. First of all I'm still fucking broken, secondly I am toothless (which is... well, costly to fix), and I'm poor (because I don't have a job, but i was planning on getting one over break, but now, well...). I probably like my pain killers more than i should, but I've been on a lot of meds lately. And generally being holed up in my house and not being able to drive or get out much just gets you depressed. Oh and on the relationship front, well I'm single again... I'll leave it at that. I've just been in a bad place lately, inside and out. Worse than its been in a long time.

so shit sucks right now.
but I'm weathering it.

but, this has giving me a whole lot of thinking time. and I've been thinking devin oughta have a new plan about him. I have some thoughts. part of it is taking things more seriously, part of it is taking things a whole lot less seriously. Its just time for a new outlook and plan of attack on life.

I am so glad this happened now rather any other time, i have time to recover before school. And I will come into this semester fresh and ready.

I shudder to say that on some level this ordeal is good for me. Knock me down. humble myself. be forced to look at myself and change. give me motivation.



thats what I gotta tell myself atleast.