So how can the pendulum that is my emotions possibly swing so far to each end of the spectrum in the course of a few moments in time? I am so high on my newfound freedom in one breath and so frozen with the fear of being a "displaced homemaker" the next? So jazzed by the energy of this beautiful welcoming, loving community that has enfolded us and so wondering how the rent will be paid. So torn by the idea of continuing on my path of ultimate uber mommying versus the daycare dynamic that is destined to pervade my newfound free life. "Where is my child support, I don't have money for food," is met with "What about the food bank and why don't you have a job yet?" Ouch? The good news came at parent/teacher conferences today. "You would never know Dusty is the 'new kid,' he is great friends with everyone and clearly on-level with the rest of the class as far as reading and math goes." She presented his self-made text book loaded with beautiful drawings and handsome cursive writings. Miranda's teacher noted her desperate quest to be loved by all, but who am I to take fault with such a noble endeavor. I have stolen a few cyber moments down here at the RoundHouse, but my battery juice is nearly spent. I must retire to the cabin before my fire goes out anyway, man do I love burning. I miss blogging but am so busy with single-mammaing and career questing. I miss you Stephanie and Caroleigh and Rebecca and Dad and Kris and anyone else who keps a cyber ear out for us!!!! Lola's visit rocked and I'll write more soon!!!!

peace!

CT

ps-still no tv, phone or net and NO WORSE for it. Who knew???????

pps-Party in the streets Wednesday!!!!!!!!!