So. I have amazing and exciting news. If you pay attention to Twitter or Facebook statuses, then you have probably already seen this. But either way, it is definitely worth sharing in blog form, because I am now the happiest I have been in a long time, possibly ever. I just feel so liberated, and it's simply incredible.

I have finally come to the realisation that I do not need to be defined by my weight, and that my eating disorder does not have dominion over me. As a matter of fact, despite this being my highest weight and despite what my BMI says, my size is fine. I admit, I have gained a lot over the past few months, and according to my BMI, I am just a smidgen overweight. But you know what?! Fuck the BMI. I don't need it or a scale to tell me how to live my life or what it means to be happy! I still look good, dammit. Plus, I have nice boobs and a nice ass now! These are two traits I was seriously lacking in when my eating disorder was ruling my life. And even then, when I was actually quite thin, I still thought I was a fucking blimp and I was never going to be content with myself if I had continued down that path. So fuck my eating disorder and all the misery it can cause! I am even happier with my body right now than I was a year or two ago when I was far skinnier! And I am so fucking proud of myself, there are just no words. I cannot believe that I am typing these words, that I am even thinking these thoughts. But I am. And it is the most wonderful feeling.

And thank you to everyone who has shown support thus far! Melissa, Keerstan, Vincent, Kyle, Ellen, Zach, Nik, Rose, Emily M., Kim, Isaura, Meredith, Alice, Kristin, Johanna S., Wendy, Hana, Brenna, Rachel C., Brittany D., Brittany J., et cetera, et cetera! I seriously heart you guys!

Of course, life is never perfect, and I am still having some difficulties here and there. Okay, so really just one big difficulty surrounding one big yet terribly petty issue. But I digress. And anyway, fuck that, because right now I just want to focus on how awesome I feel about this. Epic win, man. Fucking epic.

Love to all. <3