This is what I'm calling this group of poems. I havent actually sat down and wrote down in a while so now I've picked up the pen and pad in this case the keyboard and mouse pad now I'm ready to start fresh.
Eveyone has that something that they can present to the world. Some people have music, some have paintball, some have skating. I feel my "something" is poetry. You dont have to like it or agree with it just know that with every word that I write, with every poem your seeing a piece of me.
Thank you to my sister for setting off this off. I cant explain to you how much this means to me.
"Always remember that you are always smart enough and you can chage the world! Let others see what you have inside. "
-My Inspiration
When Angels Scream
Hope, live and have faith just knowing we can make through the pearly gates
Don't stand there as the world passes you by because one day you'll ask why?
I brushed off the demons and held the angels hand I did some shit for you to understand
I played it tough and rolled the dice never wanted interference just wanted to live my life
So when the sun goes down and the moons comes up God was judging my luck
Appearances are more then what they seem so my guardian angel cut of her wings
Now I'm looking into the belly of the beast I cross my heart and pray for peace
But when it comes down to it who will love your forever when your heart no longer beats?
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This Calendar Year
1 month ago I realized I was missing something that I never had
2 months ago the feeling in me got to big so I had to confront it
3 months ago now my days are darker and my nights are brighter
4 months ago I looked over my shoulder and the demon was gone
5 months ago the streetlights showed the depth of my sickness
6 months ago my reflection reflected something not worth reflecting
7 months ago I final came to the conclusion that I am not the same
8 months ago the pen I picked up wrote out what was left of me
9 months ago something deep inside me finally showed itself
10 months ago can look at myself and know I am worth a fuck
11 months ago I walked through the door and made that decision
12 months ago I am still wating here waiting to know if things change
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Now More Then Ever
The tase of pain still lingers in my mouth
I've held back blood, sweat and tears
The war rages on inside and outside of me
Knuckles bruised over the battles I lost
My soul is worn out but still walks with pride
Now more then ever I walk with my head held high
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Playing The Dozens
Too many stars in the sky to count them all
Too many hearts to break in just one lifetime
Not enough days in the week so lets start again
365 days of memories that I dont want to remember
I stand on the fence deciding which side looks better
The grass was greener on your side but not the situation
We played random games that didnt mean anything so be it
I got stronger and while your pettals wilted away in the sun
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Why Cant This Last?
I like the way my words wrap around your body and trace your sillhouette
Your wine bottle body vibrates with ease and excellence around the beat
Those hazel eyes know what their doing when they gaze over my outward soul
I want to understand why you play those notes with those lips so grace them over mine
I want to know all your secrets and I'll tell you how you sunk me into sleep of bliss
I could never understand how you let the sun shine on you and it expect nothing in return
I'm careful not to step on your shadow because I dont want it to endanger your beauty
I'm completely okay with your flaws because after this moment nothing seems infinite