it's absolute garbage outside AND inside today, so I decided to drop some knowledge on your punk asses.

It blows my mind that I have managed to push away almost everyone that ever really cared about me, and it is only me who is at fault. 100% my own doing. The worst part is, now that I need friends more than ever, I don't really have any. Looking back, where I went wrong is looking  me straight in the face. The absolute worst part of all of this is that most of the incidents involve drinking and shitty "scene" politics. I fucking hate that word, "scene", but that is another story. I can't believe how ignorant I was to the fact that I was a shitty drunk. It's not like no one ever told me, either. Drinking cost me bands, friends, love, success. I should have seen it coming. the moral of the story is cherish your friends and if they tell you you're fucking up, pay attention.