Okay so as most of you know (if you read the bulletin post) we have signed Jason up for hospice care.  Now this doesn't mean that something horrible is going to happen to him in the near future it just means that we are trying to make him as comfy as possible.  I just wanted to thank all of those who have sent their thoughts and prayers and I definitely want to say how brave and strong my girls are and how much I love them.  They are taking all of this in whatever stride someone takes this in but have been understanding when I am tired and cranky or when I am sobbing and they just seem to know when to give me a hug that I want them to know it means the world to me that they know and understand how hard all of this is and I want them to know that I am here even if they think I have to much to deal with I will never have to much on my plate to not take that second to talk to them!!! 

This is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with in my life and all the while Jason is telling me that everything is going to be okay.  I just wish it didn't feel like my heart was being ripped open at the thought of not having the one person who understands me the best possibly not be here at some point.  I just want all of you know that I really appreciate the prayers and that I want you to promise me that whatever grudge you've been holding or whatever something that has been keeping you from getting in touch with a loved one, family member or friend. LET IT GO it's not worth it especially when you think of it this way..what if they weren't there tomorrow and you never got that chance to say what you needed to say!!  Love to all and I will keep everyone posted on how things are going here.

xoxo,

Melodie