Why is it that people take so many things for granted. I have had the very fortuitous chance to have a select group of friends that are always brutally honest with me. And i have found after needing to vent on my friend back in tullahoma that i am more and more frustrated with my relationships. It seems that i am always in the wrong and even if i am not in the wrong i feel as though i am. I asked my friend about this and he began by informing that this was the first time in a more than two months i had called him and i defensively answered that i was the proverbial BUSY. Well, as soon as i defended my actions i was engulfed in a tirade that equals the time my mom found and told my dad about finding my nudie magazines under my mattress, boy do i wish i had done my own sheets that day. Anyway my friend made me realize that though i can defend my position with Busy it may not actually be true becasue i realize how much time i spend at home either watching a movie or on the computer or reading a book. Time i could give to my friends and show them rather than tell them i am there for them. I believe i have written more than one blog on this particular subject but at the same time i must realize that multiple blogs mean that i am the worst at taking my own advice out of all. I realize i have taken advantage of the fact that i have people that love me and who want to hang out with me and be friends to me all of the time. But i have not been doing what i can to be there for them all of the time and now realize that i have in a sensed shunned or otherwise pushed them away. For this i am indescribably sorry, and hope that all can forgive me...

I love everyone who decides to read this and most especially my close friends...

Ramen