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Current mood:  enraged Category: Life
I swear, no matter how hard i try and no matter how far i look, i can never/will never find happiness. I NEVER WIN!! i cant find a good girl because girls are all BITCHES! and i cant find a guy, cause pretty much they are all ass holes, and they DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THEY WANT! when i fall for a guy, i fall hard, especially when he tells me he is falling for me too, but honestly i think it is all a fuckin ploy to get me to sleep with *him*. i cant ever tell if he truly IS falling for me, or if he is just saying it to say it. i mean, who falls for someone and says i love you after 2 weeks of knowing them? "haven't you ever heard of love at first sight?" he says, well, it seems like every girl he sees is love at first sight. "well im still single so im going to act like im single" he says, even when he is with me. well, i for one, am trying to TEST OUT this whole "relaionship" thing with me, and im treating it like im not single anymore. i LIKE HIM and i dont like anyone else, so im going to ACT LIKE IT. i dont know how to trust him if i start dating him. because he obviously hasn't really proven to me that he can be faithful to me if we start dating. im not the type of girl that will settle for a guy that i can call my boyfriend, and KNOW that he will be sleeping around behind my back. and IM THE WHORE!!?!?!? Its not like a go out and LOOK for ass hole men, they seem to fuckin flock to me! i swear! im so sick of it! is it too much to ask for me to be happy for more then a couple of days? obviously it is.i hate those "relationships" that everything is good and happy for a month-or a couple days in the case i have now-and then you see the true fuckin side of someone after you have started to put your whole fuckin heart into it?!?!? it seems like that is happening to me alot lately. and personally it is fucking REDICULOUS!! there are so many things that i have running through my head right now, and it is sooooo hard to get them out into words, i mean, i feel them and i know how i feel about this whole situation, but there are NO WORDS to descibe how much i am FUCKING HURTING RIGHT NOW! and obviously *HE* doesnt understand me.....i just wish i could get *him* out of my head. cause the way he treats me-dont get me wrong, there are good days-i dont want to feel for him the way i do. if only i knew how he felt....
GRRRRRR!!! I FUCKING GIVE UP ALL TOGETHER!!!! hopefully there are other people out there right now that are alot more happy then i am right now, cause i feel bad for anyone that feels the same pain as i feel right now.. Krista
11:24 PM
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