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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 21
Sign: Libra

City: Tigard
State: Oregon
Country: US
Signup Date: 5/7/2005

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Thursday, June 28, 2007 

Current mood:  enraged
Category: Life
I swear, no matter how hard i try and no matter how far i look, i can never/will never find happiness.

I NEVER WIN!! i cant find a good girl because girls are all BITCHES! and i cant find a guy, cause pretty much they are all ass holes, and they DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THEY WANT!
when i fall for a guy, i fall hard, especially when he tells me he is falling for me too, but honestly i think it is all a fuckin ploy to get me to sleep with *him*.  i cant ever tell if he truly IS falling for me, or if he is just saying it to say it. i mean, who falls for someone and says i love you after 2 weeks of knowing them? "haven't you ever heard of love at first sight?" he says, well, it seems like every girl he sees is love at first sight. "well im still single so im going to act like im single" he says, even when he is with me. well, i for one, am trying to TEST OUT this whole "relaionship" thing with me, and im treating it like im not single anymore. i LIKE HIM and i dont like anyone else, so im going to ACT LIKE IT. i dont know how to trust him if i start dating him. because he obviously hasn't really proven to me that he can be faithful to me if we start dating. im not the type of girl that will settle for a guy that i can call my boyfriend, and KNOW that he will be sleeping around behind my back. and IM THE WHORE!!?!?!?

Its not like a go out and LOOK for ass hole men, they seem to fuckin flock to me! i swear! im so sick of it! is it too much to ask for me to be happy for more then a couple of days? obviously it is.
i hate those "relationships" that everything is good and happy for a month-or a couple days in the case i have now-and then you see the true fuckin side of someone after you have started to put your whole fuckin heart into it?!?!? it seems like that is happening to me alot lately. and personally it is fucking REDICULOUS!!
there are so many things that i have running through my head right now, and it is sooooo hard to get them out into words, i mean, i feel them and i know how i feel about this whole situation, but there are NO WORDS to descibe how much i am FUCKING HURTING RIGHT NOW! and obviously *HE* doesnt understand me.....
i just wish i could get *him* out of my head. cause the way he treats me-dont get me wrong, there are good days-i dont want to feel for him the way i do. if only i knew how he felt....


GRRRRRR!!! I FUCKING GIVE UP ALL TOGETHER!!!!

hopefully there are other people out there right now that are alot more happy then i am right now, cause i feel bad for anyone that feels the same pain as i feel right now..

Krista
Currently listening:
Better Than Me
By Hinder
Release date: 08 May, 2007
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Ender

 
I'm sorry you feel so shitty my dear - you deserve someone consistently wonderful, not just when his or her mood is right. Patience is a tough fucking bitch of a virtue, but it's an important one - I'm still working on mine...
 
Posted by Ender on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 12:08 AM
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sexual harassment panda

 
surely only one thing can cure this the bannana phone =).You know that im always here for you you have always been such a good friend any guy who can't see how much of a wonderful person you are should just stop while they are ahead because nobody should ever remove a smile from your face.
 
Posted by sexual harassment panda on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 12:21 AM
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Dr. Mark E. Moves
Mark Peterson

 
well as a guy, i don't know how much my words are worth to you right now, but here goes. i had the best relationship i ever had not too long ago. `she` was my empress, the one thing in my life that was truely good. i fucked it up because i was an irresponsible alcoholic asshole and i would kill to have a second chance. the average guy would at this as freedom, where i see it as a theatre of tragedy.

i guess what i'm trying to say is not all guys are like the ones you've been dealing with lately. when i initially got together with maggie, it was right after my stef decided to get back together with jonny. as much as that upset me at the time, it taught me a very valuable lesson: think with your brain first, and your heart later. I didn't jump right into loving maggie. i made damn sure she was right for me first. then i let the rest unfold.

basically, you should look for a guy along those lines. if they drop the l bomb in 2 days, its a safe bet they're thinking with their dick and playing the fact that you are a somewhat emotional girl.

so i guess my advice is to upgrade your bullshit detector and to make damn sure you and whoever the next love interest is are on the same page at the same time.

good luck,
mp
 
Posted by Dr. Mark E. Moves on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 12:28 AM
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♫ Leah is lovin college! ♫
Leah S

 
size='2'>I wish I could make your pain go away! But just know that Im always here for you and I will try my best to be a great friend. I'll eat tones of ice cream with you I'll be your shoulder to cry on. I'll make a big poster of his face and then throw darts at it with you.... (that would probably be really fun. can we do that to tys face 2 when I get pissed off at him? haha) I know I have told you to just lay off of him but its not my decision and that I cant tell you to do something that you dont want to do. But I would like to give you respectful advice with out hurting your feeling and I know I probably have cuz you know I dont really care for the dude. But I dont like someone who hurts my friends feelings and makes them feel bad! I wish telling him to be a man and not a player would help....But I really dont think it would help. What ever you decide Im with you! :) I love you and you are one of my best friends. If hes not the guy for you, that doesnt mean that there isnt a guy/girl out there for you. You just gotta give it time. Try not to look so hard, let the person your supposed to be with find you, but remember from your past what kind of person is right for you. Maybe you could write down some pros and cons about the dude your wrote this blog about. If the pros are more than the cons maybe he could be someone you could date, but if the cons are more than the pros maybe its just better to move on. But its totaly up to you! anyways Im just going on and on and on. So I love you and I hope what I said helped you just a lil bit.



<3333's Leah</font size='2'>
 
Posted by ♫ Leah is lovin college! ♫ on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 12:29 AM
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My dearest Krista,

I understand your pain completely. I spent three years of my life with a man that i thought i could spend my life with, but we all know that it wasnt meant to be from week one. Then i met a man that swept me off my feet, and made my every dream come true. Yes he was older, yes he had baggage but who doesnt, right? WRONG! He broke my heart into so many pieces im still trying to pick them up. So I left. Well this is your time to step back an take the time to find your self and what you really want in life. Spend sometime being single and just havin fun.

Now when i say have fun i dont mean have sex or fool around. But take your life back into your own hands and show those men what they are really missing! I love you girl, and i know that this may seem hard, but BELIEVE ME, I understand!

<33 You
Catrinalee
 
Posted by on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 1:05 AM
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SPC 7-Ton{AOP}
Marshall Kennedy

 
ok. im still pissed at u for disrespecting my family like that, but im sorry for what u r going throw right now. u do deserve better. i am truly sorry.
 
Posted by SPC 7-Ton{AOP} on Sunday, July 01, 2007 - 4:13 AM
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