I know the thoughts that are goin through your head! I have the same ones!
If an when you pass on, I will be there to tell everyone about how we prank called people at 6am to ask them if they want to go to mcdonalds. I would be there to tell them how we would tell people how to make cheeseburgers an mcgriddles. I would tell people about how we used to play the dumbest song on the radio an sing so loud that the cars next to us would roll us their windows. I would make sure that they played the boom boom song just so i could remember everyday that we played that song drivin past brits dads house! I will share the endless happy stories an memories that we shared together! Because that is how you should be remembered! My best friend that was their for me an all her friends no matter what!
I love you!
 

I can only say...I hope that u will be at mine before I am at yours,, I love you. Aunt T.
 

My mom told me about this one distant relative we had (only he wasn't exactly our relative, he was a relative of some of our family..) who actually had his "funeral" while he was still alive so he could have a good time with all his close and distant friends and family. He thought it was dumb or something for all them to gather together after he'd gone to mourn and wanted them all to, instead, celebrate his life while he was still alive and have a good time not mourning for anything. Lol Maybe you could attend your own funeral... And who knows?
 

i cant promise i'd be there or even know that it happpened ;( but i can say that you have made my life so much happier even in the short time i have known you so far Krista:) you really have been through a lote so far and i know its so very hard to deal with trust me i know a good majority of what you have been through i have either seen with many friends or felt first hand. and your life is not wasted no matter what you do with it as long as it is yours and i think that you realize that and just need to get moving forward and hopefully i can help, but i cannot promise you anything except to be kind and fair and respectful to you, and hopefully a friend if you need it, too. you really are so special i just hope you know it and i'm not just saying it. i've been through hell in my life too and still feel like its not going the way i want it to, please never give up hope and always strive to make the best of it and never settle for just what you get dealt cause you really do have the means no matter who you are, no matter who your parents are or what they ever did right or wrong to make your own life what you want of it and no its not going to be easy by any means. (you already know this) i guess what i'm saying is that its so saddening to see you smile and glow and be such a wonderful being when i see you to think that you don't appreciate you or think that you aren't worth anything due to what has happenned in the past. yes the past makes you who you are to a degree but you have the power to make the steps in life to help the outcome of your future to be more of what you want it to be the past isnt you and all those bad and hurtfull memories don't make you they make you stronger so you can learn from it all and be a better person .. the person i love to see smiling and laughing with me when we goof around . if anything you have ever done in your life know that you have made the sun shine brightly on my heart mind and body since the day i met you:) and it feels great!!!! so i guess the rant is over i hope you read this and take what you can even if its repetative banter . i hope it means something anyways i mean what else so i say. i think you are great even with all the so called flaws and bumbs in your life. you are so great KRISTA, you really are!!!!!!!!!!!! - BRIAN R. EHLERS