So, i lost the love of my life today. i dont know if i would call her the love of my life. i think i would just say, i lost the girl that i love.

Britany and i broke up officially today. And what really confusses me is the fact that i am happy but whenever i think about it, it makes me depressed. I never knew i could care about someone so much!! i didnt think it would be possible for me. I just didnt know my heart could ever make me have this strong of feeling for one person.

So i dont know what to do. i havnt talked to her since last night when we got into a big fight over something really stupid now that i think about it. And i still dont know how she feels. I think she has been having these feelings for a while now, but she never told me about it. I could tell that she really didnt care about ME as much as i cared about HER when she started hanging out with Erin again. I was cool with it at first until Brit told me that Erin liked her. i mean i really had no reason to be jealous over that. but i was. i was extremely jealous. and then the time came when i hung out with both of them and DJ and Jason(brits boyfriend). They payed more attention to eachother then anyone else there. Right then i knew that it wasnt going to work out between us.

So i only have one thing to say. Go with your gut feeling ALWAYS!! When you feel like something isnt workin out, dont continue with it, just get your feelings out in the open right away so you dont get even more hurt..

Krista