I was talking to a friend of mine last night. She told me she wanted a man that was truly in love with her. I told her I loved her and she retorted with "...but you love everyone". Why's it such a big deal that I care for a lot of females if I care about them equally? Why would it matter if I chose to give all of me to one person despite being friends with so many others? So,asking those questions, I'm starting somewhat of a case study of sorts. If I was dishonest with every woman I met or ever will meet in the future and just not tell them that I have other friends I care about, would it matter? She'll be happy, never the wiser, never knowing I have other friends, but that would mean I would have to stop talking to my other friends.

I remember Haileigh saying to me that one day I was going to find a girl and that I wouldn't talk to her anymore. She said that's fine, but she would at least like an occasional e-mail to see how we're doing. I always told her she was wrong, that I wouldn't stop talking to my friends because of a female, but I think she knew better. They'll do anything to try to control you. I'm I willing to be controlled? I think any of you who truly know me knows the answer to that.

There it is. That's the question. Do ladies really want a man to truly love them and only them, or do they want a man to just show it, so long as they believe it? A lot of you will probably say the former, but my point is, if you're none the wiser, why would you even fucking care? You're getting what you want. Be the fuck happy.