So I am up on my perch, looking out over the city's thousands of lights imaging all the wild mayhem out there.  I am trying to be patient, trying not to tear at my seams, trying not to scream for I am waiting, wanting and unbelievably excited and terrified for the New Year!  I am devising all sorts of new ways to reach out... I can become immersed in my creative bubble and shy in sharing my thoughts when I wrap them all up in the songs I sing.  But I realize I am missing a connection with the very people who are out there listening to music and sharing so many of the same experiences.  So as we begin our recording process for album #2 finally!!  I thought this would be a great place to share the story and my thoughts.  I am so very excited by all the new music Kor and I are writing and I am also overwhelmed on making all the right moves this time out of the box... will I reach the people who will like our music,  will I be able to pay for a tour and musicicans and promotion and the CD and be the manager and the artist all balled up into one.. will I do it right this time?  I ask myself, what is the measure of my success... is it money? is it fame? is it recognition?  I think I would say it would be being able to survive on the music I write and perform... and touching someone with my music or my words... if I touch you, if I give you something, if you feel or smile or cry, if we connect.... well, that would be my success... I went to an Amanda Palmer (of the Dresden Dolls) concert last night. Halfway through the show she auctioned off one of her guitars and then passed a boot around the audience for collections… all to help pay for her tour.  I guess it’s a sign of the times – tough economy and tough time for musicians. She reminded me of a traveling minstrel of the days of old come to town to play and ask for a few coins and then move on in dusty wagons to the next town… just to sing her songs.  Except she has a record deal and was playing at a major theater.  It was funny and a little endearing, but sad and strange too.  Anyway, she was great, really passionate and sardonic and I did put a few bucks in the boot!   I feel connected to her too, she reached to me – she’s gonna write and sing and play for her people no matter what! So passing her boot or not, that passion, her touching us... that is success.  That is how I measure success! So, deep breath, wings spread, I am about to jump off the cliff!  Here's to 2009!!  Will be posting music soon.... Happy New Year... In wild love... Renfey