Its getting worse. My stomach was tight all day and its starting to cause my UC and IBS to act up. It has been more than a year since I've had a UC attack but I had one early this week. Still got up and went to work cause if I didn't I'd be put on probation and I can't afford that. A coworker who has been out the past six months because of her own stupidity is now back and doing all the work I've done and worked so hard to master the past year. I'm back to the dredges and less. I'm back to the bottom of the barrel and lower. I get more respect from others than my own team and manager who is going through a very immature midlife crisis and thus no help at all. I need to get out of here but how? And is it safe? The last job I was at lasted for 7yrs and it was teriffying to move on from there but I was promised better pay and better oppurtunities. Come to find out that those in HR are really good at sales and bull shitting. Yeah the pay is a little better but the oppurtunites are not there. Even the educational oppurtunities that were available at my other job and told could continue are actually nonexistent here. Haven't had the nice confortation yet and feel too tired and what's the point anyway? If I talk with the HR manager and ask her nicely, again, how I can continue my LOMA training she's just going to come up with another bull shit answer. The last was in response to a very nice and upbeat email I had sent her about 2 months ago asking if there was a way. Her response was to tell me to sign up for the class through our online training courses. That's impossible as it is not available online but only either a self-taught or instructure lead course and as far as I am aware not available outside our office. Can't do the self-taught course as the books are more than 5yrs old with the CD-ROMS missing and are thus completely irrelevant and useless. They don't have any instructors or anyone else who wants to learn and grow like I do so whose going to pay for that when they have had 2 layoffs since January? So I'm stuck in a worse situation that I was in before. It sucks. My hopeless situation and getting treated like crap by my coworkers is only making the stress worse. I really need to get out of here but how?