Written, Recorded/Produced by Jamie Fooks Mixed/Mastered by Scott Fooks Final mater by Kaylub at Eardrum Valley in Kelowna BC. Beats and Keys/all midi instrumentation-Jamie Fooks. Electric guitars, bass and acoustic- Dillon Whitfield.  acoustic guitars, banjo, baritone ukelele, backup vocs-Mark Hamilton. violin, back up vocs- Foon Yap. back-up vocs- Annalea Sordi. stand up bass, electric bass, mandolin and accordian-Matt Flegel, electric drums in I’m so afraid- Jesse Locke

don’t mind us

everything that i say to you
will be forgotten by tomorrow
so why
do i try to
lend you ideas
that you aren’t even able to borrow

don’t mind us
we’re just doing a pose
we’re pretending we’re lovers
and nobody knows
our faces are painted
our bodies contorted
and every effort we made was completely distorted
by the bright shining lights
right in our eyes
through the loud noises you can make out
the hellos and goodbyes
just greetings and fleeting moments of magnificence in between
seem so defeating when we get home and forget where we’ve been

let’s say everything we want to say
and explain any human in us away
by removing all emotion
we can change our blood
into magic potion that can
bend them all to your will
and then nothing can hurt us
or stop us until
someone cries
what a thrill what a thrill

let’s say everything we want to say
and then we’ll say it in reverse
but we can’t do it like improv
we’ve got to sit down and write the script
so that we can rehearse

that way we never even said anything at all
that way there’s no proof that can make us feel foolish or small
that way
we want it that way.










I’m so afraid

i’m so afraid
of everything everybody
im so afraid
look at me
look at me be afraid

i was singing for you
i was dancing for you
i was hoping that you
would tell me that i was worth while
please do applaud
please do....

I don’t want to go out
i don’t want to talk about
anything that i’ve ever talked about before
I don’t want to play dumb
i wish i did feel so
i don’t want to make believe that im somebody else anymore

from where you stand
you get to decide
who exactly it is that i am
although the me in your head
may not coincide
with the girl having fun
on the other side of the smoky bar
you’re looking you’re truing to see
you’re looking so hard
but you just can’t see so far

i may have been pretending to be everything you decided i was
and that was all depending on assumption verses truth so far divided because
all you wanted was a show
so c’mon let’s dance let’s go
all you wanted was a show
tell me what’s the point of making you know that....

i’m so afraid
of everything everybody
im so afraid
look at me
look at me be afraid
 
i’m so afraid
of everything everybody
im so afraid





ships bound to sink

This goddamn self importance well
it’s got me down
don’t tell me i should smile while i’d prefer to frown
because it’s harder that way
my face is bored as my head is by everything you’ll say

who are you to think
im looking for saviors on ships bound to sink
your favors are
built to own me
your flowers would wilt if only
they were just beautiful

instead they die
stinking of desperation and loneliness
i guess
this is your
version of  love

who are you to think
im looking for saviors on ships bound to sink
your favors are
built to own me
your flowers would wilt if only
they were just beautiful

i don’t need your advice
i don’t have to be nice
why can’t you see
you’re not better then me
i need you to say
it’s better off
you’re better off
we’re better off this way
i don’t want to be the one who has to say..

who are you to think
im looking for saviors on ships bound to sink
your favors are
built to own me
your flowers would wilt if only
they were just beautiful

it’s all so tragic
come closer savior boy
i want to
see you work your magic





the bird’s song

I don’t know the words
i left them to the birds
in the morning light
just to remind me
i hadn’t slept all night
i hadn’t slept all night

see this is the thing
when think about it being over
i feel like im going to sing
the saddest song
so very sad no one will be able to sing along
without hanging their heads
to hide their ruined faces
as time goes on
repetition erases
the original meaning
and the pain that with it came
and hopefully by then
i won’t remember your name

see this is the thing
when think about it being over
i feel like im going to sing

I don’t know the words
i left them to the birds
in the morning light
just to remind me
i hadn’t slept all night
i hadn’t slept all night

now that we’re alone
sing along with me birds
these are the words we’ve always known
and yes it’s been long
but we won’t forget
and never regret what we learned
when we wrote that song

we didn’t know how to fly
when we fled the nest
ever since we’ve denied
our rightful place as second best

now that we’re alone
sing along with me birds
these are the words we’ve always known

I don’t know the words, i left them to the birds, in the morning light,  just to remind me i hadn’t slept all night, i hadn’t slept all night...

Moving Notes

Now i can only hope
this broken heart of mine
will mend in moving notes and
four four time
and rhyming words i write to sing
so i can get through anything
these notes do tend to bring into my life

like losing everything
i thought i wanted
the song said make a choice
do you want true love or
do you need my voice
and it’s voice my vice i chose
whether it was
true love or not
only the song
will ever know

oh no this song will never tell
this secret she will take to hell
locked in a box no one  can see
this promise made to her by me
and if she sees my wandering eyes
she’ll turn and breathe her icy sighs
onto my heart she steals the heat
and with it she will scream

i will never let you forget
it wasn’t made for love
it was made to keep the beat

oh please let me go 
i know i made a promise but
i just can’t stand this constant crying in my head
you think you need me
to look down at you with pity
if you really want my help
i will leave you alone to feel sorry for yourself

oh no this song will never tell
this secret she will take to hell
locked in a box no one  can see
this promise made to her by me
and if she sees my wandering eyes
she’ll turn and breathe her icy sighs
onto my heart she steals the heat
and with it she will scream



Last chance for romance

This is the last chance for romance
this is the last chance for your lies
you can look at me all night long if you want to
just promise me you won’t look in my eyes
i never wanted you to turn to stone
i liked you better before when you were
blood, flesh and bone

you don’t know me
and that’s because
you shouldn’t have to mourn
the death of what never was

i know you like my poison tongue
and all the venom makes you feel so young
if there is one thing i would like to suggest
adore my skin so i don’t have to show you all the rest

you don’t know me
and that’s because
you shouldn’t have to mourn
the death of what never was


C’mon baby say bang bang

All the pretty boys and girls are out breaking my heart
they all look so cool i can hardly tell them apart
they’re all looking for a little bit of love power and control
but that’s all right because tonight our heads are going to rock and roll

let’s stay up all night and figure
whose guns are bigger
you can put yours right between my eyes honey
if you promise to pull the trigger

we’re all so damn enlightened
we’re so self aware
we’re all looking at each other
but when we know it
we pretend that we don’t care
and no matter how much we had
we always wanted more
and that’s all right because tonight our heads are going to hit the


let’s stay up all night and figure
whose guns are bigger
you can put yours right between my eyes honey
if you promise to pull the trigger

it was a glitter glamourama party of lies
but all that human drama well it was burning my eyes
and everyone so seriously
danced together
and the reflections
from their diamond encrusted gold plated guns
enhanced the greens and the blues in their peacock feathers
and they looked so beautiful
so red faced and forgetful
and no matter how hard they tried to take the moment in they couldn’t
we’ve got the bottles for the buyers
and the suckers for the liars
all this heat is causing fires
we’re a bunch of real live wires
we’re real live wires

et’s stay up all night and figure
whose guns are bigger
you can put yours right between my eyes honey
if you promise to pull the trigger







we must destroy

things change
i didn’t realize
how quickly it could happen
i’m over it already
i didn’t think it wold be so easy
i’m not scared anymore

we must destroy it
was never built to last
by the time this thing’s done it is
already a dark part of our past
we must destroy it
we must destroy it
we must destroy it
we must destroy  we must destroy we must destroy

these lies
these never said goodbyes
you tell me not to worry
but all your lines are so goddamn blurry
you keep sending me these beautiful songs
you know that i have loved you all along
but now you’re going away again
i say take care because you like it when i pretend
im not scared anymore
im not scared
im not scared
im not scared
im not scared anymore

we must destroy it
was never built to last
by the time this thing’s done it is
already a dark part of our past
we must destroy it
we must destroy it
we must destroy it
we must destroy  we must destroy we must destroy

you died today
i knew i’d lose you to yourself
one day
one day
you died today
i knew i’d lose you to yourself
one day
one day

we must destroy it
was never built to last



Oh captain

Oh my captain
my captain
you are not in the same boat as me
it’s true we may both be sailing
on the same stormy sea
but your boat is impressive and
your sails are so strong
and your crew high in numbers
all of them hypnotized by your perfect song

and mine is a rowboat
just me and some friends
taking shifts on the paddles
with hope that our weak arms might mend

oh my captain
my captain
we did not agree with your sinful intentions
we began to rebel
sabotaging morale
just to get your attention
but you didn’t notice
for you were consumed
counting coins from the seabed exhumed
we pooled all our money
and bought us this boat
left in the night
no one even took note

and mine is a rowboat
just me and some friends
taking shifts on the paddles
with hope that owe weak arms might mend

strength depleting we are forced
to live on the scraps that are thrown overboard
convenient  for you we owe for what we take
to keep up or be crushed by the mass of your wake

and mine is a rowboat
just me and some friends
taking shifts on the paddles
with hope that owe weak arms might mend








thank yous
scott fooks, jaynee fooks, warner ross johnston, ian woo ,adrianne (cloud pleaser) mason hasties, andrew wedderburn, cjsw, ffwd, beat route, mark hamilton, kenna burima, foon yap, annalea, katie and scott (the sweatshop), woodpigeon, the summerlad,  jesse locke, matt flegel, Sarah lowpike, Diane rawlinson, Vespucci, Rectangle records, mike scorgie, jen miller, the consonant C,  Zak Pashak, Colin Clark, Randy Gibson, Lindsay Baker,



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