I thank God for moments of clarity. A point where something finally just CLICKS. I had a moment like that the other day, and I was inspired to write this piece. Ever since, I read it over and over, and each time feels like the first time. I'm so grateful to God for His ability to speak to me, so that He may speak through me, so that I may ultimately not only minister to others...but myself in the process.
Within my short 22 years of living, I can't say that I know much, but i've definitely learned a lot along the way. And when it comes to this lil love thing, i've come to find that one should go beyond just looking for a "good woman" or "good man". As I told a friend recently, "every good man that comes into your life isn't meant to be your man". Some people come into our lives to teach us things about ourselves and expose us to treatment that we may not have experienced before.
I thank God for the good men that have been in my life (and the bad ones as well lol) because they have raised my standards and shown me things that I am deserving of. However, I also thank God for getting me to a place where regardless of if a man is good, I can finally distinguish if something is for me or not. Ladies, don't just desire a man that is good to you, but a man that truly understands that you are a jewel, a blessing, to be fought for, and held on to no matter the cost. A man that knows that he knows that he knows that you're worth it. And same for you gentlemen. Don't just settle for a good mate, but a person that will love you with a passion that is unadulterated, uninhibited, inexplicable, and beyond earthly comprehension. Like my homie Tye Tribbet said, "excuse my English, but good just ain't good enough". You're deserving of someone who knows that you're worth it. Bare with me, this is a work in progress...
Like water in the Serengeti
he'll need me
love, console, hold me perfectly
he'll remember me
like nations reminisce on Nefertiti
i'm better than his queen
i'm his entire kingdom...his everything
our hearts will drift up so high
we'll be the audience of heavenly soliloquies
rhythmic replicas of angelic melodies
i'll be the answer to his every equation
a love that extends greatly
and goes beyond an intellectual interpretation
no need to prove myself
because he knows that I am the exception
traveling down a road of men
masquerading and embodying falsification
hitting speed bumps and dead ends
to finally get to this destination
a man that loves me entirely
embracing my flaws, understanding my every imperfection
he breathes me, he feels me, he sees me
for who I truly am, totally...completely
certain of my identity, he won't doubt my potential
he'll appreciate my value
a man that acknowledges matrimony material
he'll comfort my body, fuel my emotions, & stimulate my mental
someone who finally gets it & understands it
He comprehends the significance of my place in his life
So there will be no cause to request, plead, or demand it
his love will flow freely, with no reservations
overcoming our existence beyond psychological explanation
no more regrets about decisions gone asunder
no need to guess, no need to worry, no need to wonder
no need to explain it
no need to prove it
no need to show it
why? because he knows it...
i'm worth it