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Fallen
I told him that everything was ok between me and him, I told him that I trusted him. And I wasn't lying ... or at least I thought I wasn't. I really do trust him, but I feel that lying to him telling him that he hasn't hurt me ... will only hide the fact he has. He hasn't laid a hand on me to physically hurt me ... neither has he said something that would have brought me down to tears, it was just him being him that hurt me. My insecurity and dependency has led me to back away from someone that will truly make my life happier, and he is left obvious to it all. I let him show me what I've missed, what my depression has caused me to fear. I've let him touch me ... he showed me he care and I gave him my trust. while I play second wheel, I let it happen, I let it go pass as if nothing has ever happened just to hold on to the little we have. I've fallen for him, against my will I've fallen for a man who knows nothing of my love for him ... and I hurt my self to keep him.
- Aug, 08, 2006
I wish I knew I didn't know when to stop
When enough was enough
I just kept holding on to the little we had
Hoping that things can grow from there
But no, you kept putting me down
Despite what we had
You always rejected me
With excuses of that was bound to happen
Or what could of
You'll never know how much this hurts
How painful it is for me to see you with her
How much this pains me to not be with you
This affair is tearing us apart
I wish I knew how to quit you Wish I knew how to walk away from you Wish I knew how to forget you
-Aug, 08, 2006
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Redemption
By Gackt
Release date: 02 February, 2006 |
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