sanity:  black maybe ' syreeta

never thought i'd say this, but i need to watch tv more. i mean, the only time i watch is when i get home & check my recordings on my DVR (best invention EVER). grey's anatomy, private practice, law & order: svu, and heroes. bam, that's it, for me.

i hate the news, because half (or more) of the time, it's bias. [let's not get started on fox, again].
today, i realized that i REALLY need to be watching the news.
i made an important decision a few years ago to change what i could change ... speak for people who couldn't ... and make noise when it was too freaking quiet. but today, my mom mentioned the RECENT dragging death of a young (24 yrs old) man in paris, tx.

i had NO clue. and why? because i don't watch tv. i used to pick up the NY Times @ starbucks, but i don't even do that anymore.
i'm only one person, and i realize that i can't do something ALL BY MYSELF ... but this young man's family was being done wrong, and i could have written/called/drove my tail down to paris, tx to make my voice heard & to show that family that they had some support.

if you haven't heard anything about this, click this link:  http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2008/10/24/national/main4544985.shtml?source=RSSattr=U.S._4544985
God bless him & his family ...
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i contacted a friend that i haven't spoken to in a very long time, today. i left him a voicemail ... so hopefully he gets it & i get to speak with him soon.

i wrote about him in my blog a while back - maybe over a year ago ... maybe even 2.
his name's billy. i think he's probably one of the absolute best friends i've ever had. as time went on, we both grew up & he got married & has beautiful children. for some reason, i never thought his wife [who i've known longer than i've known him] was really comfortable with our friendship ... so i stopped communicating. i'd randomly see him on my trips back to oklahoma & he'd give me an updated number - and i'd call, maybe once ... but i'd always hear discomfort in his wife's voice when i called.

i could care less about someone making ME uncomfortable, but when you really do care about a friend, you'll do anything to make sure THEY aren't uncomfortable. do you feel me? the last thing i want to do is disrupt his happy life because i'm contacting him and his wife doesn't want me to.

true enough, i don't know her ACTUAL feelings about it ... it's just a 'vibe'. but whatever.
your question: "so, then why'd you contact him today?"
my answer: "well ... regina (my cousin) & i had a lovely 2 hr conversation last night & we talked about people we haven't seen or talked to in years. we were both close to billy & both want to see him. i realized i freaking miss my friend. i never had a male friend who was that awesome."

we'll see what happens. i had a dream that his wife asked me to add her on myself. weird, because i've searched & didn't find one for her.

i d'no ... did i make a mistake?
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i'm starting school again! just as soon as that freaking income tax check gets here, lol.

you know, i LOVE school online. i don't think it's any easier, in reference to the work - so i don't feel like i'm being cheated of real education for the sake of convenience.

i started a couple of years ago ... everything was going great. my grades were awesome (duh!) ... but, the company i was working for sent me on a business trip. a 6 day business trip.
i didn't have a laptop ... back then, u of phoenix didn't have classes via explorer - it was through outlook, so even if i went to the business center @ the hotel, it wouldn't have mattered ... needless to say, i didn't get anything done, so that placed me at the horrid point of being about 3 weeks behind (technically 2, but the time it would have taken me to finish the work from the previous week & the current week would have taken me into the NEXT week).
i became overwhelmed & i gave up - well, took an EXTREMELY long hiatus.

needless to say, i am very pro-further-education ... but my main priority (especially since i travel so much)? ... getting a freaking laptop.
it's the first thing i'll be getting with that income tax check.

excited about starting school again :)
bonus? i work @ t-mobile as a pda/blackberry tech rep, so the discount for my wireless card is BANGIN! lol $10/month for unlimited access ... and the device itself is like 40% off. that's what im TALKIN about!

okay ... i'm about to retreat, because i'm sleepy and you know how that goes: "babble, blah blah blah".

peace!