Carlo said that he wished he could fast forward through this time in his life. I guess I could agree, sometimes you just wish for more independence and freedom, and the feeling of control over your own life. And parents tell us no, that we should wait, blah blah don't rush blah! But you know, they're right.

I realize that these are the times you look back on 20-30 years from now. Some wish for a second chance, when others say it was the time of their life. I try to make the most of these years, and for my friends like Carlo, try to make them a little less endearing. There are many things to frown about during these years... but how many reasons are there to smile? Countless things, because after all life is truly what you make it. If someone dies, fine. Give yourself time to mourn, to cry, to reminisce, and to recuperate. When I find myself emotionally distressed, I go and crawl into a corner, wallow in my own misery for a while, but then get out and find, or give, myself something to smile about, because, I don't know who said it, but every sixty seconds you spend upset is an hour you'll never get back, and life's too short to waste on those things. Yeah you want the ups and the downs, but who wants mostly downs? And besides, these are the years when we have no concept of real responsibility. To us it feels real, its the only thing we know, but later, what kind of things will we have to worry about when we have a job, when we're standing on our own two feet, when we're married, have children. I mean, who wants that as a kid! And that's what we are, kids. My dad says we have plenty of time to live the rest of our lives, and I think its true. Its nice to think about how it'll be with our perfect job, and our perfect little families, with our little spouses that we'll have no problem with. But who am I to say? I mean, I haven't even lived any of that yet. I have my innocence, my wide-eyed curiousity and wonderment of life, and I'm scared to lose those things. I don't want to become another jaded adult. I don't want to be miserable the rest of my life, so I'm gonna take it slow and make sure my steps are sure and solid. I hate it when my parents don't let me do things, but later you realize... they do it for a reason. But yeah, sometimes some are a little more extreme than others.

But like I said, what do I know? This is senior year, man. I'm gonna have some damn fun. =)