I am so frustrated with my life!!! I hate not having a job and doing nothing with myself. I'm tired of having to b wat every1 else wants. I don't want to date dave, be an apostolic, or have a bf! I just want to b me. Is that too much to ask? My granddad gave me a religious lecture in front of the whole family today. I was highly embarrassed. I hate that he's trying to force his beliefs on me. I'm also confused about some of my feelings. I feel asexual but I find certain women attractive. I want to b left the hell alone but then I want to b around some1 in the evenings. When I say that I mean I want to c my mom after she gets home from work. I like to txt and IM but I would prefer to not socialize in person for the most part. I just really want an job and to go back to school so I can make something of my life. I want my life to have meaning and purpose none of which it has now. I want to say I'm tired of b n alone but that's not really true. As far as relationships go, friends and otherwise I'm fine. I wish some1 could help me.